By ladyinwaiting
Date: 2004 Jul 22
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[[2004.07.22.16.04.1702]]

Afraid

i should have listen
to my sixth sense
as thoughts of you crept in

went to pull my hair up
wore it down instead
song 'hero' playing
in the back ground of memories
as i drove to the mall

i'm always anxious when i go there
wishing or fearing
i will see you

it's been over a year and a half
since our eyes met
sure we chat on occasion
via internet
but protected from each other
through the glare of the screen
and miles of difference

but today
i watched you go by
every inch of strength
screamed from deep inside me
i stood numb or stunned
a little difficult to differentiate

my heart skipped wildly
i forgot who or where i was
like an idiot afraid

afraid of my addiction to you
afraid of our weakness
afraid to run to you
afraid not to
afraid if i didn't
time will erase me