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By Dana Date: 2005 Mar 29 Comment on this Work [[2005.03.29.09.56.15068]] |
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Apparently I haven't been looking into our move as well as I could have, as well as I should have. It's not that I didn't care, I just didn't know. I've never had to deal with any of this before. I've been blinded by my own misery and have been ignorant. I've been ignoring the reality that is the safety of my family but, I'm trying my best. This is all new to me and I really don't know what I'm doing or even where to begin. All I know is that we're better than this and I want to get out as soon as possible before it gets even worse for us. You've opened my eyes to what I've been neglecting. I feel so lost and alone, trapped and isolated. I feel miserable and disorganized. This place depresses me so bad. I feel like my hopes, dreams, and aspirations are crushed here. My motivation and pure hatred has caused me to become cold and bitter. I hate myself for my carelessness. I hate myself for the pain I've caused others. |