By Ali
Date: 2005 Apr 13
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Could, Should, Would

It should've been
Any other lifetime
But this,
And yet, my trouble-time heart
Refused such an answer--
So the haunting harmony
Still secrets this place.

It could've been
Easier, but I couldn't
Believe in anything,
And you believed in me,
So I pursued,
So I tried too much truth,
Never guessing what I'd pay--
Always now, a sullen Monday.

It would've been
Too foolish, if I had been
More brave--but I was
Out of place, just a girl
With a grown-up heart,
Looking for everything
In a space of Nothing.

I was sixteen, going
On seventeen
(Isn't how that song goes?),
And I didn't know, then,
The could, should, or would
Of anything.
Grant me a slight of grace,
And remember me on dusky days,
When the mist hangs low
In the morning, and the coffee-cup
Comforts are the only songs
You seem to know.
I remember you
In every heartbreak
I've had since then--
Whose lips I have kissed,
Whose face I have followed,
But whose soul--
I never did know.