By Bijoux
Date: 2005 Jun 19
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[[2005.06.19.18.55.1946]]

forget Christmas

I used to love a blank page
now it just means a place where
I have to write my meaningless thoughts.
I have become an automaton
eat, sleep, smoke, pee
forget Christmas
forget birthdays
I am a puppet to my hypothalamus
just survive
forget creating
forget imagining
I am not content
at the fact that I am
useless to you now
used to at least be a place
where you could cum.
Now it seems you'd rather not.
I want to write letters that send
chills down your spine
say things that make you want to
pull out old letters and smell worn paper.
I am crinkled and worn
torn at the seams