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By darby Date: 2005 Sep 19 Comment on this Work [[2005.09.19.20.50.28806]] |
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Some days there is only so much I can take. Today was one of those days. All of the little things, and a few of the big, culminated today. Between work, studying, class, my grandpa back in the hospital, and losing you, this week hasn't been the most difficult one of my life, but it was pretty bad. And all day I wanted to call you, just because I know your voice will always tease me into smiling, and I so wanted to smile today. But I couldn't call. I never even dialed the numbers and then quickly hung up. I just stared at the phone, hoping that you would call me. I was stubborn and I didn't want to be the one to make The First Call. (Between your pride and mine, I wonder if we'll ever speak again.) All day I was one negative moment from bursting into tears and I was afraid the wrong word from you would make me cry. And I have yet to let you see me cry. So there it is. I can't call you. But I can't make it through my day without out your voice. I just hope you can call me. |