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By asiamee Submitted by asiamee Date: 2005 Nov 26 Comment on this Work [[2005.11.26.08.20.11050]] |
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My best friend is getting married. He recently proposed to a girl he met 6 weeks ago. Apparently, he only needs 6 weeks to introduce himself to someone, date her, get to know her thoroughly, fall crazily in love with her and finally, ask her to be a part of his life forever. Im talking about a guy who's always had repulsion for people who over-romanticize everything and who's the ultimate skeptic when it comes to real relationships. We used to stay up all the time till sunrise just to talk about love or the lack of it in his life and he would always tell me that he's not really looking for it nor does he feel the need to coz he knows I'm the girl he's gonna marry anyway. Haha. Our conversations would always end up with him asking me to choose between love and security and he'd always say "DON'T SETTLE!" regardless of what my reply was. I dunno if the world's been revolving too fast around me or is it just me who have unconsciously refused to go with the flow? Where was I while he was going through a major change in his persona? It's like waking up one day and realizing that everything I know abt him doesn't hold true anymore. 13 years of friendship have given us some sort of ESP that works exclusively between us and so it feels strange when, lately, I'd often find myself dealing with things about his life that I have not anticipated yet. Suddenly, he's doing crazy things that he never would have done before. What makes him want to marry her before the year ends? Is it really love or is he "settling" for someone who happens to fit his idea of "cool"? I could ask him these questions but I dont want him to be forever scarred by my skepticism. Im scared, though. Im scared that he has created a new life where I only get to be a mere spectator. Wait, thats a little far-fetched considering that I was actually the first person he talked to about the engagement and Im still the only person he talks to about most of his personal issues. Well, I dunno how long its gonna stay this way but Im already preparing myself to be pushed to the sidelines while his fiancee finally takes over my place in his life. Whew! from main star to second lead... haha. I wonder how silly he can become with her, too. Have they ever been so deep into their converstion that they couldn't care less if they're the only two people at the open-air bar gettin drenched from the rain? Would he fall down the stairs with her just for fun? Does he ask her to walk miles with him instead of taking a cab so he could spend some more time with her? Does he carry her on his back while walking around 12 blocks of streets just so he could spare her from walking in high-heeled shoes? Has he ever wasted 9 hours inside a crowded cafe just to wait for her to show up for their date? Has he ever taken a one-week leave from work just to lounge around her house everyday? Does he tell her that it feels like his heart is being microwaved everytime she does stupid things? Does he sing to her like the song was written especially for her? Has he made poems for her? Do they stay out gazing at the stars til the sun rises? When she looks at him, does he hold her stare long enough to disarm her? Does he let her sleep in his arms in an impossibly uncomfortable position and pretend that he's asleep, too, just so he wouldn't wake her up? Would he drink her spit? Haha!!! Ok, ok.. that one was from "If Lucy Fell" :P |