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By perception Date: 2007 Feb 23 Comment on this Work [[2007.02.23.23.00.4495]] |
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There is a vision in my mind Some call it G-d - but isn't faith all in the mind? There is a vision in my mind Some call it love - but isn't chemistry all the world intertwined? The vision in my mind is like a coffee cup which i read: He whom I was once "in love" with was never real, and is not real now -- at the closest dearest, the love making can be called mind making, and know that your visitation last night has been noted in it's white light. Additionally, I'm glad that you received my invisible charm, use it in good health, and thank you for sending the dancing deer whom inquired about my health, and sent a message which has actually given me final confirmation that you and i are truly very different, and since we have never manifested our love, my loyalty and devotion to you is only a dream. I can not profess my spiritual love and devotion to someone, even symbolically or metaphorically, whom I truly do not know. Since you have repeatedly refused to be open and honest with me regarding your intentions and perhaps, "hidden agenda", I can not be part of your tug of war. It has been my spiritual counsel, after visiting the old wise sage in the evening, the old wise saint, the old wise beggar, the old wise prophet, the old wise shaman, the old wise medicine doctor, and the old wise friend, the old wise healer and the old wise mute, that I must cut any spiritual ties to you in my higher dimensions of existance, since in all physical dimensions that are logical and rational, we don't have a connection, and never had one, and never will have one. Finally, my husband who holds my heart in his divine chamber for safe-keeping has met with his counsel and refuses to ever give me up since i am after all, his divine soul mate. He whom has finally decided to start painting picture words for me in the clouds of the sky I looked at today, thank you for spelling it out clearly for me dearest angel. Although dearest angel you whispered in my ear not to repeat your few word poem divine for me, I can share the vision as it relates to me: my heart is love divine, and since your poem is so short, simplistic and yet deep in meaning, it will take me many more visions in the sky to understand the exact meaning in relation to me. That is the key, dear angel: in what way does the poem speak to me? A poem speaks to people in different ways, how dear angel, shall i understand the language of this poem since it is not part of my mother tongue, naturally, i don't speak tongues, naturally... so dearest angel, while not repeating the poem, i can say what it means to me: i don't know. Since i don't truly "know", i can not write a meaning in words. For now, the meaning has been invisible for me, to use a metaphor, if i don't see the fountain of youth how can i drink from it? if i don't see G-d how can i know he is watching and listening? Yes, everything returns to faith and ideas, but as long as G-d never appears, truly, then it always remains a mystery. isn't that true? Personally, I believe that G-d sends divine messengers as shape shifters, but there are also messengers that G-d does not send, it is from the dark side. So, one may ask, such as the fallen angel aza, how do we know if we are in communion with the light of chaos or order? Well, we don't -- i don't always know myself -- my golden rule is to follow instinct, intuition, etc... even these are tricky because messengers can play tricks. Personally, dearest angel, since you are only a poem angel, i know that you are harmless, but in general, as a rule, my communion, is always, directly with the source of creation, which again, some may call G-d, and that is my free will and my right to speak with G-d. Speaking with G-d does not make someone crazy, or religious, rather, it makes someone aware of the divine hand that is beyond the human hand in life -- the unknown. Another word for G-d is the unknown creator of phenomenon. There are so many more visions, but i must take a moment to write my last vision for the night: this is about my health. It is true that as a warrior, I have had many battles. Although I may rememember life long battles from childhood to adulthood, I don't keep all the memories alive in my mind due to the fact that research has shown that the mind has a memory eraser to protect itself. This means that if I were asked to recall every detail of every battle, I would most likely not remember very many details of the painful and difficult ones. It is true that I remember my history but I don't dwell on details because each battle is a lesson, each enemy is a friend in the sense that the enemy is your teacher (not literally here). In otherwords, the enemy teaches you what your weaknesses are and helps to perfect strategy for future battles. And the quote that sums up what this means to me is: One hundred victories in one hundred battles is not the most skillful. Seizing the enemy without fighting is the most skillful. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Art_of_War). I have had many enemies, but one specifically is the enemy of bad luck and bad health so i try to seize the enemy of bad luck and bad health without fighting -- giving in to my faith of the divine creator and i believe that any fighting of bad luck and bad health is in the divine realm so i freely allow the spirit of Yud Hey Vav Hey to "fight any battles" and heal me, whether he leads me at times to spiritual or physical medicine, one, the other, or both... I am 100% in His hands. |