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By Crystal Date: 2007 Apr 27 Comment on this Work [[2007.04.27.01.12.25427]] |
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The pain so deep. When enduced and it settles, overcomes sleep. Replaces the ability to welcome happiness and the more days that fade the fewer smiles shared with solace. Over analyzing the events that bring sorrow and so ensueing the withering of my only soul. Which in what seems to be severed from the free spirit whom was once known and shackled to a breathing corpse who can't find release from being alone. Surrounded by beauty, yet I feel filthy. Can't wash away or sleep off what I awake to. My past is behind, but it is a piece of the woman standing before you. From which, my knowledge and understanding derive. I was never as strong as I would like to believe. Look where I lie today. No further from the mistakes of the past I failed by. I want to feel clean cleanse my spirit. That I let drown in filth and find love for myself that no longer exist. I smother myself with the opposite of what I want and feel guilty to leave it behind as though I deserve it. |