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By karinflor Date: 2008 Mar 21 Comment on this Work [[2008.03.21.01.10.10365]] |
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I would be lying if I said I didnt miss you, that I didnt think about you, that I dont long for what we had. How much I regret not having held on tighter to our dreams... granted we were both so young and naive, but we had so much love. Again, I would lie to you if I said that I didnt miss you, that I dont long for you, because our songs haunt me, shades of your touch still flow and ebb around me, they wrap me up in memories of our nights and lakes and pink colored skies. To think of how foolish how foolish we both were to agree let go, now that time has passed, I realize you dont let go of something like that. We didnt know, we didnt know we would not feel the same way, we took it so lightly. All in all, I miss you and after all, these years havent done much to retrace that space with new, brighter sparks. Its just not the same, if only it were different but stronger´. I never agreed to this, it wasnt supposed to end like this, you were supposed to be ok, impetuous and impulsive but SAFE, and now, I dont know where you are. I just feel you, hear you and miss you, Im not supposed to, Im supposed to have moved on, but Im grieving you after all these years. I know I need to let go of your memory, cause now that the bridge that leads to you is forever broken, theres no chance of coming back to you, to plan a trip, to have a chat, or phone call. How do you reconciliate what I feel with your absence and the void you left in all of me, in all of us? I miss you, I want you, even when its not with me I want you here.. And what do I do now? i cant replace you! noone else will do, I tried, it doesnt work, and time hasnt done much to heal. I want you here to invade my space, to plan more trips, to cook me more blueberry pancakes with ice cream, to spoil me and love me with such love so innocent as if you had never been hurt; if only writing could let some of these feelings exhaust. |