|
By karinflor Date: 2008 Apr 04 Comment on this Work [[2008.04.04.16.38.9521]] |
|
Im sure you had lunch with her today, quite possibly all that time you used to spend with me is hers now. I guess you can say Im jealous of all the laughs you will now share with her, conversations about her years in japan and all that experience, her being in her early 40s and me still in my fresh, happy and vibrant happy 20s. Still, the thoughts that used to be for me I guess are now hers. Same old story happens...I met the boy as a recovering alcoholic, helped in everyway I could... used to be the best thing that happened until I was outgrown, until you got on your feet and now its actually ok to let me go, because now that youve got your act together, Im no longer necessary; in fact, I got to be a nuisance...thank God it was only a year.. It was never special anyway, I was never anxious to celebrate anniversaries, never anticipated special occasions or holidays. It was more something like, an ironic geez I wonder what he´ll come up with this time....fun fun vacations we had....great romantic walks on the beach at sundown, thank you, because now, theres not so much to hold on to! I loved you innocently, I was advised by the public in general to give it a shot, give love a fresh new try, and so I did! little did I know about the concealed layers of your confused heart, half trapped in ghosts of burdened past and half trapped in future plans and projects. Future plans in which I was only a fine possibility and not a basic component. I dont know what to think of you anymore, theres so many sides, so many angles, I guess I never really knew you. |