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By callaphair Date: 2009 Jul 15 Comment on this Work [[2009.07.15.04.21.29799]] |
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You just told me how you violated me. You violated my trust. You violated my privacy. You have been reading my emails for months. You have been checking my phone for messages for months. I loved you. I cared for you. If you had just only violated my life, I might be able to forgive you. But you also violated the trust of those I was conversing. You don't understand. I can't keep it in. I talk to my friend to the people I love. It isn't a betrayal, it isn't a test. I need affirmation. I need people to let me know that my reactions are good or not. without them, I have learned, I make horrible mistakes. But please, if you need to continue to judge me to make you feel better, you go right ahead. That should have been the first sign, instead of the last. I need the people I love. You only want to own them. Maybe someday, we can be friends. Maybe someday, I can explain it. But I refuse to do it with you yelling in my ear. I refuse to do it to an unwelcome ear, and I refuse to do it to someone who throws it back at me. I LOVE YOU I would scream it from the street, From the top of the Empire State Building The top of the Chrystler Building, From the top of the Woolworth Building. But you won't hear it. You won't hear my devotions You won't hear what you need to hear You just want me to be in your predetermined box I will never fit into it. |