By KK (mkaida@earthlink.net)
Date: 28 May 1997

I don't know

It is very strange.......
this is awkward...............
I don't know what's happening...
I donno if she'll be on....
or if she'll talk to me.............
did I make a mistake.....
I don't know....
she cares for me.......
I care for her..............
will things go on....
like they always have....
now that there is a factor...
I don't know...
This is the confusion...
this is the new age...
where there are no boundaries..
there are no walls...
we've never met...
we've shared intimate details...
she knows me..
I know her...
I think...
I don't know..
the line between fantasy and fiction...
does it apply...
or is it a shadow..
a void...
filled by the screen...
our only face that we see..
does there need to be a face..
or will the face crash..
and blow away....
life is risks...
and risks must be taken...
but which risk is too great..
I don't know...
there is a line...
a solid line...
love...
frendship...
that line is a thin rope..
holding two hearts...
the rope wears thin..
it could snap...
it could hold....
only time will tell..
I don't know...
I've walked that rope...
felt it tighten..
walked a mile...
felt it snap....
I fell distant....
the borders were too far....
between is nothing....
just a void..
I don't know...
a hand caught me....
I did survive....
with that helping hand...
turning to new age...
was that wrong...
was fantasy calling...
I don't know....
the fire died down...
a new spark arose..
was that wrong..
I don't know....
confusion now....
feelings...
grew...
fantasy....
faded...
love...
grew....
distance...
faded...
wanting...
grew...
memories...
faded...
I don't know...
-----------------------I want this to happen---------------------------------------------