By Kaye Cunningham Date: 12 July 1997
I look at the calender and the day of my departure comes nearer. Now that we have come to our senses, laughing and loving one another, both realizing the impossibility of our deepest wants, it does not cause pain. A sweet tightening in my throat and yes, a tightening still near the heart, but still it is Sweet pain. A feeling of fullness exist now, in this almost empty heart lining. For although our real time love will never be, I will not soil the memories by moistening them with tears.
Remember how we would always say*wanna wrestle?* giggle. I always won.You always let me. You only won that one time. And it was a championship win. And i let you win that once. I am smiling now, as i write this, knowing the memories of you and our moments, hours, days, weeks....will never leave me.
You gave me so much. You filled so many empty spots with your loving words, your thoughtfulness, that I now am contained in the beautiful secret of our love time, glistening inside my heart and mind..filling me with happiness that I need not share with anyone. All mine..my treasure box.
You know I pray for the very best of everything for you, your life ahead, your happiness, wishing that there was that special place for us, knowing that there is only one..inside our hearts and still unreachable. That the friendship ,fondness, and gentleness never leave, for although real time lovers we can never be, you will always be a lover to me. Tucked into the pockets of my heart, i will hold you forever, taking out the memories when i need the very best of love.