By Lissa TK (foolslikeme@yahoo.com)
Date: 10 November 1997

Just Friends

I had a dream late last night
It started out well, everything was all right
But the fairy tale quickly turned from enchanted
To make me realize the things I take for granted

You were with another, she was not me
Yet she was exactly were I wanted to be
You held her close, you loved her so
And I felt like dying inside because I couldn't let you know

In this dream I could not leave
I had to stay just to see
How happy you seemed, I wanted to cry
But I would not interfere and I knew not to lie

I wanted to reach out for you
To tell you her surface told no truth
The pain to endure to watch you walk blind
But I couldn't warn you and it would only take time
For the lies to show and the truth to be known
With each fleeting moment my feelings had grown

I had to fight to hold back my tears
To have all that I want just disappear
But I wasn't going to let you slip away
If she wanted to keep you then she'd have to pay

I wouldn't let my feelings show
Though deep inside I knew you'd know
I couldn't hide these feelings from you
And the words I spoke from my heart were true

I accepted "Just Friends" while forcing a smile
Praying this'd just be for a little while
Just your buddy, I guessed I'd always be
But you'd always be so much more to me
For you to be happy I'd sacrafice
All that I had and all that I could in life

I awoke with a start, slowing my heart
Trembling and looking around in the dark
I lay back in bed, my heart filled with dread
Until I realized it was all in my head

Minds play a game as we sleep at night
Visions roll by showing what might
I realized I now knew  one thing for sure
Just your buddy I can't be ---I've got to be more!

When it comes to "just friends"
With you I thought I could until the end
But to be happy, to hold back all that could be
"Just Friends" would be a prison to me

I close my eyes, trying to get back to sleep
Silently realizing I've fallen too deep
Oh is this what you went through with me
I'm sorry it took so long for me to see

I've got your heart and I want it to stay
Just give me a chance to show you the way
Conspiring thoughts now race through my mind
As the morning light slips gently through the blinds