By suziq39@hotmail.com
Date: 10 September 1997

Awakenings

You awakened feelings in me that  I knew not existed.
I felt alive for the first time in my life.

The showers with you, I would gaze at your glistening body
 and think how lucky I was to have met you.

Now my heart aches to feel that closeness once again, for
your looks of passion and love.

Will I ever know these feelings again, with you or someone else
  yet to drift into my life.

Will I ever respond to someone else's touch, gazes?

My heart still aches when I see signs of you and I that
  Haunt my soul, my heart, and it all comes back in a flood
   of tears and aches for you.

I weep in the shower because I remember those arms around me
as the water pouring over our bodies.  How will I ever got you out
of my soul completely.  Because you touched a part of me that I 
never knew existed in me.

You had loved me so completely, so giving, so wanting, so needing of me now
that need has left you and I am left with bittersweet memories and longing for you in my life.

You say you watched me sleep peacefully, that I was an angel sent from heaven.
Then why oh why did you send this angel away.  I had sparkle in my eyes, now that too has
left. Why did you take that away from me too?

Now I am left with a constant ache in my heart, and trying to cope with
life.  What will it bring me, new beginnings, new love, new hope, new joy?
Or will it bring you back to me someday?
Or is that a false hope?