By Angel
Date: 21 September 1997

Never Forget

					For a blink of an eye fantasy became reality. 
                                                     Then it went away.
                         I am back in my life. Here it is real. Here there are no sugar coated
                                      moments of respite from the cruelties of life.
                                                   Now I cannot pretend.
                           I must go on. As if nothing ever happened. As if I am the same.
                                               I want to believe in fairy tales.
                                  In knights on white horses. And princesses rescued.
                            I want to lie to myself. To make myself believe in what is not.
                                                             I can't.
                                        I know too much. The reality is too real. 
                                  I understand what is. I know the cost of my actions. 
                               I understand that I can never have what it is that I want.
                           The fantasy came true. It's reality even better than hoped for.
                                                        It was fleeting.
                        I close my eyes and remember. The look the touch the feel the smell
                                                         It's all there. 
                                                   I wish it would go away.
                                                    I never want to forget.



(C) 1996