By J.E.D. (dunton_jaim@bentley.edu)
Date: 29 August 1997

ramblings of an anguished heart

What you do to me is torture
Your eyes meet mine and I wonder...
What are you thinking?
Do you see my want for you?
Do you see my pain?
Do you see the longing I have
for your hand in mine?
You say my name and my heart skips
I say yours, and hope you don't hear
The feelings I have are well hidden,
but I wish they were evident
I watch you when you don't know I am
I see you with others, and I want to be them
Do you watch me?
I wish I knew
Life could be so much simpler
We should all wear our hearts on our sleeves
able to be read by anyone
Please read my heart
I sit back and I suffer
We talk, but it's all trivial and innocent
You smile, and my heart melts like a snowball in hell
You're so close, yet I can't reach you
Will you reach for me?
I can't tell you how I feel
Rejection would be worse than my ignorance
All too soon, we will be apart
My time, our time, is running short
The hourglass is almost empty
Can I handle never knowing?
I don't know
I don't think so
Do you know you do this to me?
What do you think of me?
Do you see me as just a friend?
Or am I more to you?
Please tell me
I know it shouldn't matter
Our friendship is more important
But it matters to me
I have to, must, lose this feeling
It's killing me inside
I'll give up on us soon
I have no choice
Please save me from me
I love you