By you
Date: 25 November 1998

Pain

Write what you wish for I asked them.
My students really did.
That my parents weren't divorced.
That my best friend hadn't moved away.
That the popular kids would like me.
That we could just be happy for one day.
And it broke my heart.

And for one moment losing you was no longer
the biggest deal in the world to me.
For one moment you were not the center of the universe.
For one moment I felt for someone other than you.
For one moment I cried for someone else's pain instead of my own.

But in that moment I cried for my one wish.
In that moment I cried for myself.
In that moment I cried for us.
In that moment I cried because you won't come back no matter
how hard I try.

But mostly I cried because they knew the pain that I felt
and still smile when I just can't anymore.