By heart Song
Date: 3 November 1998

A Book of Lessons

What you are teaching me...

That love is not forever.
That love is not strong enough to conquor all things.
That love is not the most important thing in life.
That love is not worth fighting for.
That love is just a word.
That sex is great!

You are teaching me to give without expecting anything in return.
You want all of me, but you will only give to me the least of yourself.

You won't waste a promise on me.
I am not worth a promise.
I am not worth a spoken word of love.

You don't care about my feelings, my hopes, my dreams.

I don't know what feelings you have for me.
I put my feelings for you in words, out loud, on paper.
And you treat them as only words.

My love for you is so physical, so real, so painful.

I feel as though if it were over between us today, that to you it would be just another day. Tomorrow you would get out of bed, have your coffee and go to work, just another day.

To love you is to open my eyes each morning.
To love you is to take air into my lungs.
To love you is to suffer each day with an aching pain in the center of my chest.
To love you is life.

What I would teach you...

To give yourself freely.
To let you know that your heart would forever be safe in my care.
That asking is receiving.
That life is short and time is only seconds away from ending, enjoy each day to the fullest.
To give all of yourself.
That love is pure.
And my love is free.

I could live with you in a castle on a hillside.
i could live with you in a card board box on the street.
I could work beside you everyday of my life.
Work toward the same goals, to achieve our dreams.
My dream is simply to love you.
And for once to be really loved.
To see someones eyes light up each time I walk into a room, Yours do.
To see love playfully in your smile-I see it in yours.
To be more important than money, (Gotta keep working on that one).
To know I'm special.
To know I am worth the effort.
To know that I am worth giving up something for.
To know your heart says mine name with each beat.
I don't want to be just a person, 
I want to be a part of you.
When I breath out, you breath in the same breath.
To have a child with you.
To feel him grow inside my body.
To know that it's you.
And you are mine.
To grow old with you loving me.
To be the last love of my life.
To die in your arms.