By Shadygirl**  fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 19 November 1998

To the other girl...

Hazy eyes softened Your face
and I found the sudden urge
to tie You to my side.
To form an ally with the 
one person for whom my envy
could eat me alive.
will eat me alive.

So I ran to You
across newly made mattresses
and held onto You as
if You were the only door
to him.
I screamed thanks in silent 
whispers
in your ear
and cried. I loved you
because he did.
Because I knew my love for you
would ease his fear
would tighten his grasp on
my soul.

You have such kind eyes.
Your words are sincere.
You are not a wolf,
You are a friend
whom I have made ugly
with the mask of my own
yearning and jealousy.

Accept my hand
but don't look too deep into my heart.
Don't run when You find out
that I will always love him.
Never fear my intentions
(well, maybe a little)
and take my friendship for what it is.
An attempt to make an
awkward situation
more comfortable.