By sCrEaMiNgAnGeL
Date: 14 November 1998

scary

your beautiful eyes 
watched my every move
i never even realized
what did you see?
 more than i meant to reflect
i confused you with my coldness
i feigned indifference
in order to protect myself
if i so not care 
then you won't feel superiority
when you deliberately abandon me
you tried so hard
persistently holding me
even when i pushed
you couldn't understand
neither could i
you kissed my eyes 
and touched my ear 
with your thumbnail
before you left for work
no i wasn't sleeping
that gentle touch 
put my heart between your teeth
its things like that which scare me
comfort is intended
why do i feel so lonely
i must be crazy
the more i love you     the more i hate you
im unable to accept my own vulnerability
and the power you have 
chokes me