By Kagney
Date: 1 November 1998

Senior

I'm a Senior.

I'm suppose to be the most comfortable in my school. Everyone thinks Seniors are smart and ready to go out into the "real world". Seniors are suppose to be ready to go out and make something of themselves. Truth? The truth is I still feel like a five year old little girl that has lost her mommy in a huge crowd of strange people. I'm scared. Scared of not finding what I'm looking for. Scared of letting someong I love down. Scared of letting myself down. I don't know what I want to be when I "grow up". To me I've still got seven or eight years to decide. To everyone else, I've got less then a year.

Everyone makes such a big deal over the ACT/SAT.This test that will decide what college I will go to. Well, I'm so sorry for not thinking that is right! I just don't think that a test should have that much control over MY life. I feel lost, and I don't know how to find myself.I don't know where to look to find myself, or who to ask.I might as well be in another country... or even a different planet! It's like I speek an alien language. Nobidy understands me. I am Alone, even in a crowded room.

I've watched all my friends grow up.Right before my eyes, and I still feel as mature as I was in the seventh grade.Ya know, I felt more mature when I was six, seven,or eight years old, then I do now, when I'm eighteen. Its sad isn't it? Well. It's true. Welcome to my world...