By Niki
Date: 27 January 1998

Unloving

Do you understand when I tell you I'm falling out of love?
  Or did you ever know what it felt like to be in it?
You tell me that you want to be with me forever, but....
  Forever is a long time.
Too long.
Too long.
How could you know you want to be with me forever?
  Is it worth being with someone you "only" love?
Because that's all it is with you.
  Only love.
Do you know what I mean?
  I love you greatly, in the sense of caring.
But I'm not IN LOVE with you.
  And after all, isn't that worth a million forevers?
Being in love, I mean.
  The feeling of connecting with a soulmate.

It's not the feeling I get with you.