By Grant Kelley
Date: 22 December 1997

just me talking

most people say i'm just a kid, and they're right.  i'm 20, a college student at
truman state university.  i really don't have a great deal of relationship 
experience.  in high school there were only two girls that would let me take 
out more than once.  i didn't get kissed until i was sixteen.  there is really
only one thing about love, and relationships that i kling to.  i think it is the
only thing that anyone can kling to and survive.  love is such an over-used 
word, people are not afraid to say it.  but when it is genuine they are scared 
to believe it.  the one belief that i hold is that you can should never let 
someone stop you from caring.  that doesn't mean don't obey that restraining 
order, or pour over them every moment of the day, or write them fourteen times
a day.  it means never let them out of your heart, if you dreamed of being with
them forever never let go of that dream, even if you have to let them out of 
your life.  some of my friends call me a hopeless romantic, you might be saying
it yourself, but i know that if i can love someone so completely and so deeply
then that is a beautiful thing.  even if i can't show it to the person i want to
that does not mean i can't show it to all of the other people in my life that 
much more.  i know that maybe it just wasn't meant to be with one, but if i can
feel that high from someone's presence once i think it can happen again.  i look
forward to that day, until then i will keep looking for the one.  i kling to 
that hope, and never stop chasing my dreams, i just have to change directions
sometimes.  dosteyevski(did i spell that right?) said something about the state
of civilization in a society can be best judged by its prisoners, didn't he?
i think he forgot to mention that the state of potential in a society can be 
best judged by its dreamers.