By Heather      dreamheather@hotmail.com
Date: 10 June 1998

What?

What am I doing??
Can, or will, someone please tell me?
It's been a long time,
and I am still feeling my way around.
Most times I'm doing it blind, in a place pitch black.
This is so new, yet so old.
Am I getting anywhere with you?

What am I doing??
I am in love for the first time,
in my adult life.
I can't figure out what to "do".
Do I have to "do" anything?
Who would know, who will answer me?

What am I doing??
From you, my man, I am getting not one clue.
On this subject, you are totally silent.
The only ones doing any talking at all
are arguing, almost endlessly, inside me.
Head to heart, heart to head.

What am I doing??
My mind asks my heart
over and over and over again.
My heart just keeps repeating,
"I love him. It's as simple as that."
So still, here I am.
And again I ask.

What am I doing??
Finally a third voice speaks up.
"The answer is: nothing.
There is nothing to be done.
Just love him.
Love him with all the love in your heart,
and then some."
Thank you Lord.
Now it's two against one.