By Donovan Christoffer (bigsword@iastate.edu)
Date: 13 May 1998

I give up

So here I sit at this accursed computer
One more night alone
That alcohol numbs my body
But not my feelings for you
I don't understand why I feel this way
Why cant I let you go?
Maybe its because you are the best I ever had
Maybe its because you are my dreams come true

I try to let you go
Believe me I try
My one objective is to forget about you
To one day never think of you…not even once
Somehow you re-enter my life
Somehow you remind me of you
Why cant I let you go?
Maybe its because you are the one of my dreams
Maybe its because to me you are wonderful

Who knows why I sit here late at night at this computer
I cant tell anyone how I really feel
Least of all you
I want so badly to be your friend
I need so much to be your lover
I can be neither of the two
Without one I cant be the other
Without the other, I cant be one

Where are you now?
Why have you gone?
Its him, isnt it?
Why cant you just tell me so I know,
So I stop wondering?
I don't know if I can do this
I don't know if I can handle this
My feelings are too much

I need you
I want you
I cant have you
I give up