By Jennifer Rutherford
Date: 9 May 1998

Spitting

Last night I went out with another guy
completely unsuitable
and I let him kiss me, touch me
in his car
let him all over me
even though I didn't care

knowing that everything he did
was going everywhere you went
replacing it, albeit badly
sadly, no one's been as good as you were

I wasn't into it,
but he wanted me more than you ever did
but I let things continue
because I knew that every guy after you
is spitting in your face

and then I dumped him
and refused to call ever again
and I started giving excuses like yours
thinking, "Is this how he felt with me?"
 
let's see . . . using a guy, 
not caring a bit about him,
and knowing I'll never call-
am I turning into a guy?