By Jessica jwesika@hotmail.com
Date: 12 April 1998

The One You Just Couldn't Have

The One You Just Couldn't Have

I've gotten so used to you.
But lately it seems like
you're just not you anymore.
Maybe you're not happy,
so you just go through the motions everyday.
Or maybe, maybe...it's all in my head.

I thought I loved you.
But I was never in love with you.
There's a difference you know.
I love you as a friend, a wonderful person.
I did, once, want you- to be with you.
That is no longer.
I haven't really given up, just moved on.

So maybe there was a chance
for you and me to become "us."
Or maybe there were a million chances.
And maybe I just pushed you out of my reach.
Was it as scary for you as it was for me?

I need to know.  I have to konw.
Why?  When and How?  Please tell me.
Questions that have no real answer.
Yet your heart screams, louder and louder.
All the while never letting you forget
the one you just couldn't have.