By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 30 October 1998

broken rainbow

all day long I ached
all day long I felt you
   you had me, again
   you thrust yourself
     back into my life
 you fucked me
    and told me
   it was intense
 you fucked me
    and asked
  for a thank-you card

all day long I felt
raped, for some reason
I did my laundry
   in a daze
 sore and stupid
  loathing myself
pondering my panties
 as they spun around and around
in the dryer while
 strangers eyed me
thinking, maybe
What a Strange, Angry Girl

all day long I knew
it was nothing
just another OOPS!
just another UH-OH!
just another reason
to drive off a cliff
with the radio on

all along I've loved you
despite it all
because of it all
all the damage done to me
all the roses I'll never see
   I know you
and we both know
  how well
you know me
but the love is lost
   and will never be
the rainbow I had
    hoped for