By Marla McGinley - Marla_McGinley@panda-law.com
Date: 2 October 1998

Past Memories

I get so fearful at times
Wondering if each scene you play out with me
Another remembers in her own mind
Do you and I share anything intimate that you haven't shared before
Or will our memories slowly fade along with those of the past
The jealousy eats at me and I hate it for what it does
Yet I'm not jealous of them, more like angry with you
I hate that, I hate how helpless and angry it makes me feel
But what does one do, how does one stop
The hurting from another's past
The love I have for you is immeasurable
And I cannot imagine being completed by anyone but you
Yet will the fear and anger ever disappear
Will the tightening in my chest and throat ever go
Can I ever lie at night without being haunted
Haunted by a past that was never even directed near me
I'm so sorry for the emotions it causes me to play out
And I pray that it never causes us to pull apart
Be patient with me my love, and let us hope...
That as proven in the past, time will heal all wounds

Marla