By erin
Date: 27 October 1998

retrospect

i saw the way you looked at her
and i saw the way

you'd gaze at me too
brown eyes
          full of unspoken promises
                           (lies?)

and i ignored the fact
she looked back
    you were meant for me
  so it was (meant to be.)

 and it was
y o u + m e - h e r = perfectness

the standard equation--so i thought
and don't think i didn't see
  (you still look)
but i was smitten (sigh)

  then the inevitable
  (everyone else knew)

and i'm not blind
    just starry-eyed (they get in the way sometimes)

it was fine for you
just a new pretty face
  (i'm not stupid)

  why'd you cry?
  your're not an actor
  (are you?)

etc. etc. etc.
(excessive drivel)

i cried
i feel too (yes,)
           (i do)

and now
it's you and her
and i hate secrets
and i'm not stupid
and i'm good at fixing things

Does that sting?
(starry-eyes)
(no tears)
(brave front)
(?)