By Marla McGinley - Marla_McGinley@panda-law.com
Date: 2 October 1998

These Thoughts

It eats at me sometimes, this feeling inside
And though I try I often cannot forget
I imagine a thousand different scenes all without me
And I wonder if the memories will ever disappear
Even though our lives have changed and the memories have past
They manage to stay even though they were never my own
I realize we are different but then again how, what makes it
Is it us, our love or just the times
Sometimes I think I will never handle it
Other times I think I burned your past with mine
But then I don't have the past, not like yours
And while I can't begrudge the years before me
Somehow I cannot accept them either
It makes me almost hateful at times
Yet even when I catch myself I still cringe inside
Forgive me for not forgiving you.

Marla