Though time has painfully passed,

And the miles between us have grown to thousands,

Your essence is still impressed upon my soul,

As I deeply fear it shall remain so…

…for the rest of my life.

Fighting with every beat of my heart

That pushes blood laced with memories of you

Throughout every cell of my body and mind.

The relentless torture that refuses to cease…

…until that heart does the same.

Unlike you, I’ve no comforter

No replacement hand to hold

I’ve felt no loving embrace since yours

No strength of another to support me…

…other than short lived smiles from strangers.

I am growing so tired and the hope is fading.

I have said and expressed so much to you

Only to receive pain and misery in return.

I have so much more to say to you…

…but now bite my trembling lip.

When you call me and I do not talk.

When you see me and I turn and walk away.

If you reach out to me in search of making peace

I cannot respond because I have no peace…

…without you by my side.

My love for you…

…is now the source of my agony