By ZoE
Date: 24 September 1998

How hard is it for you to love me?

i said maybe he will
i said maybe he won't
i said i miss you
but i said it so you couldn't hear me
i think summer is calling
the capacity of your breathe on my neck
and you said you didn't want to die this way
and i said why did you want to die at all
but i knew you always liked for me to wear my white dress
i said it wasn't the end
it was the beginning
you said i looked skinny
i thought i always looked that way
see we danced in love
when we did so capriciously
i brought you a cookie in the rain
it crumbled
i was so ashamed
see i loved you so deep
i loved you so true
see i loved you and sometimes we shared that
now i walk in ripped dresses
i walk with dandylion seeds crushed in my palm
i scatter myself
once when we loved it was so good
in fields we were never alone