By ZoE
Date: 24 September 1998

it wasn't supposed to happen this way....

so your so certain of your way home
i think as i stare at the bloodstained clothes that maybe you wanted 
something pretty to look at
i think that's all we ever wanted
'cause boy you could lie to me a thousand times
in your dirty hands
but boy your still pretty
so i anoint myself with the gleams from your cigarette ashes
this wasn't how it was supposed to happen
i am so fearlessly myself that it amazes me
but when they look me in the eyes so fearlessly
i shake, i can't stop shaking
see,it wasn't supposed to happen this way
i sit and try to forget but it's hard when my soul crys
as i sit in the back row
the bells
it wasn't supposed to happen this way
instead it's your wedding day