By TK
Date: 15 September 1998

Relapse

Here I go again.

Regression.  Seclusion.
Deterioration.

Sliding towards an era of bleak
existence.

Sinking into that dismal, emotional
cavity.
What brings me here?

Something.  Anything. 
Everything.

Persistent instances and occurrences

bent on assailing me with memories.
Torturing me once again.

Love. Resentment. Loss.

Starving, they gnaw at the tender
flesh

of a debilitated heart fighting
to recover.
Reach for a placebo.

Faux friends.  Self-deceit. 
Vodka!

Anything to numb the pain

until I happen upon a glimmer
of hope.
A ray of light pokes through.

Warmth.  Fervor. 
Incentive.

Reach for the hope and pick
myself up.

Dig my fingers in and climb.
Pull myself out of the gloom.

Smiling.  Hoping. 
Reassuring.

Take another step and another
breath.

I’ve survived another day…
…until tomorrow.



TK
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