By Gina Simmons      gmsimmons@hotmail.com
Date: 10 August 1998

Scared of Insecurity

From my past, I can not run and hide.
See-vows, my father did not abide.
Well, now I see the consequences I must suffer.
To handle esteem, commitment, loyalty, truth, and trust is tougher.
I used to be Daddy's Little Girl-
More precious than an oyster's pearl;
But he has gone and run away
For to God's mending could he no longer obey.
Why is often the question I contemplate...
Was my mother no longer good as a mate?
Timing was wrong and couldn't commit anymore?
Did loyalty, faithfulness, and truth leave with you out the door?

When I look to my future, I'm afraid
For finding Mr. Right is not made.
My biggest fear is that I am destined to live alone-
And never have any to show me the love I have never known.
I find it hard to listen and trust any good man;
Because my abandoning father packed-up and ran.
Now, I'm insecure about myself and anyone leaving me.
Here is where my past effects how I will be...
As a player, I no longer see you...
In a whole different light is my view.
But I am still labeled innocent and nieve
Show me how in you to believe.