By matildaMae79@yahoo.com
Date: 2 March 1999

never was

How should I feel
its been long dead and gone
old stale and sad
let go of what
I never held on
There was nothing to hold
You can't cling to plastic love
It slips way too fast
I'm convinced it never was
Yet I pick it apart whenever my mind wanders
The two things we lacked were
reality and
closure
You'd think it would all even out
Then why do I cringe
through the passing years
as I see the fabric of our life together
fade without ceremony
as if it was something I made up
like a fast forgotton daydream I indulged myself in
to fill a few hours of time