By deevaa
Date: 14 July 1999

confusion part ii (aka the last night together)

entwined on the couch
last night together.
guess i had grand plans.
your arm was wrapped about my shoulder
fingers stroking the tip of my breast
the other was holding me against your side
your hand sweeping the curve of my hip.
The silence was comfortable
(or so i thought.)
and i looked up at you
and i lifted my chin to kiss you
and you looked down and me
and your lips meet mine
the kiss was passionate and greedy 
we both knew it would be one of the last
i wanted to lead you to my bedroom
(guess i had grand plans.)
i whispered against your lips
"we are both going to miss you"
and a tear ran down my cheek.
and you looked down at me... 
and whispered "me too"
and quickly untangled yourself from me
and said to the floor
"I have to go now"
you dashed out the door.
So I sat on the sofa and cried
When will I just accept that you can't,
won't share your emotions?
when will I understand?
all those questions remain
Why do I still love you like this?
Why do I still have your spell weaving magic over me?
Why do I still care?
WHY? WHY? WHY?

(and I guess I just had grand plans)