By The Guppy
Date: 12 July 1999

memoirs of the bad guy

you know i love you, baby, but, i can't afford the chase
the things you said still haunt me
my happiness is defined by the things i must erase
and your vision only taunts me

don't think for a moment that i have forgotten you
don't think you've lost your place in my heart
i've told you many times that my love would remain true
whether together or apart

i've said so many things that i wish i could take back
and i'm trying to say i'm sorry
that anger and passion led to childish attacks
and the end of our love story

i know, i know, you won't talk to me again
and your word for me is never
a wasted year, for you, is what i've taken
but, you've taken my forever

i can't help the feelings that just don't seem to die
or deny the thoughts i'm thinking
i just can't turn a deaf ear to the thunder in the sky
or pretend my ship's not sinking

i wish nothing for you but happiness and love
though it may not always seem it
i know you'll find a real feeling to carry you above
i'll be lucky if i can dream it

and no, i'm not trying to place the blame
or make you feel guilty
those who give can take away, it's always been the same
those who destroyed me had once built me

remember me, love, when you're walking in the rain
and the sky, it's tears are flowing
remember me when rainbows blossom despite of the pain
then it's me, your heart will be knowing