By Fourth
Date: 12 July 1999

Contradicting Myself

in any possible way
I tell myself that when you come back
I will never take you in,
to eat your shit again,
to be a fool again,
to hear your lies again,
and to hear you whisper
another name when we make love again,
I tell myself
I will not care for you,
I will not love you,
I will not tremble when I see you,
but in a dream
you were asking for forgiveness
and in that same dream
I took you in my arms
and forgave you, kissed you,
God, I missed you,
and waking up just wasn't right
knowing again,
painfully again,
I have to convince myself more...



fourth.wound (7/13/99)