By The Guppy
Date: 18 July 1999

nodding and smiling

really horror shop you say
in response to your kiss first, ask questions later philosophy
and my later given answers that didn't seem to ring so sweet in your ears
i know the feeling
the one that makes you afraid
because it was real and beautiful
and maybe should have never happened
dealing with the almighty should
i understand that my "i have no idea" doesn't help
should
i really can't help it much
when people say true love is just around the corner
and i know that i've past that corner
and i look into my roadmap and see a billion miles of straight road
and even if i could see the corner
i'd still have to deal with the hookers working it
when people say that someday i'll meet a really nice girl
i just think about the really nice girls i've already damaged
not on purpose
and restrain myself from getting involved with another
"know your effects" is my motto
not so sure anymore whether it's all because i feel damaged, or i feel damaging
neither is any good to feel for more than a short time
guess something about being called evil struck a chord
guess something about being called the object of lust made me think
guess something about being called a male slut...stuck with me
it's shocking how people's opinion of you changes
just because you can't say what they want to hear
even after doing exactly what they wanted to do
i'm sticking to mumbling from now on
nodding and smiling