By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 18 November 1999

Alive & Wandering

for the longest damn time I was alone and wondering if you 
          thought of me, ever
   if you cared at all if you were with
        a new conquest and if you
          threw my pictures
             and letters
           in the trash
last night for the first time since I lost you
      I was alive and wandering
          loving my solitude
        embracing my sweet self
    as I walked down the highway with the trees surrounding me
         and whispering my name
      and the stars above me telling me that only a precious few
         ever realize the brevity
             of this life
         and do something about it
     only some of us are able to shine
           and it is usually
             those of us
         who cry deep tears 
            yet somehow manage
          not to drown
        and those of us
         who aren't given many feathers
         yet somehow manage
         to breathe in the joy
      and with ebullience...
              fly.