By ZoE
Date: 7 November 1999

a strange dance

So I smack dabbed center in the middle of your life this time
and I was glad that you pretended not to notice. 
I hoped I could still be your gravity
not that I wanted to be
see I feel so guilty
and I think all he wanted was to love himself
I couldn't love him
don't know how
It isn't him, it's his outline in the sand
it isn't him it's just that dream I had last night
where he was younger and I said I loved him
didn't think twice
didn't screen my priorities first
right there he could be mine
in the hands of time
Not that I want him to be
And I will hate myself when I replay his message just to hear his gravely voice