By Ria
Date: 10 November 1999

Montreal

I could've had him
  if I really wanted him
easily pulled him 
  to a dark corner of the bar
    while the music wrapped around us
  like the smoke coming from our lips
the night was mystical enough
  with the snow beginning to fall
    outside on the streets of Montreal

It would've been easy
  to take his face
and savor his mouth slowly
  the way I did that summer night
    when he was drunk
  and I wanted to pretend I was too
the taste of him was quickly forgotten
  so I hoped to remind myself tonight
    of the slick-sugar of his lips

I should've asked him inside
  enticed him into my bed
without thinking of the consequences
  only needing to finally know
    how his skin could make me feel
  how his hands could make me want
the thought of it was tempting
  no strings attached
    damp bodies entwined in the sheets

It would've served you right
  if I had surrendered to him
all of the things I saved
  to give to you.