By Crystal cwilkinson_85@hotmail.com
Date: 15 November 1999

Letting Go

It was so simple to fall for you,
and so hard to let you go.
i thought I could do this...
I spoke the words and said I would,
and as soon as I left your arms...
my eyes filled with tears.

As I walked out your door my heart beat rapidly,
I though I'd faint.
How could anything be so hard?
I kept telling myself,"Just walk away!"
I did but yet I want to run back...
run back in your arms and tell you,"I'm so unready to let you go!"

I toss and turn in the night,
wanting to just call you at 3:00 in the morning to just say " I LOVE YOU!"
I realize the timing is all wrong, for you.
But it's happened, and we can't go back, we love eachother, 
and I know you aren't completely happy without me,
yet not completely happy with me.

Misery, how well I know it.
Why can't you be the one to just say...
you want to hold on to me forever?
How did you feel when I said those dreadful words...
"I'm letting you go."? 
I could see the pain in your eyes, 
but you kept quiet, hardly even spoke a word,
just asked why I now decided to do so.

Just grab me right now,
and tell me you don't want to be with me right now,
but you don't want to let me go.
Do it now, before I cry and it's someone else's shoulder I cry on.