By ZoE
Date: 6 November 1999

Nice Job

So tonight I can be brutal
tell you what I really think
(knowing you'll never see it)
by the way
just for the record
I'm happy for you
I'm not jealous that my taffeta didn't get your attention
and her cotton did
that's ok
really it is
Last summer you showed up out of nowhere
a fucked up time in my life
with a full pack of parliaments a half a pack of matches
2 other times in my life I felt this unsatisfied
maybe 3
I wish you the best
root canals and bliss
I had to spite her
you know how ruthless I am
or maybe you don't
oh I forgot
you don't know me
It was just one of those pack your bags, chainsmoking, passed out on the bench
kind of nights
and I was one of the luxuries of your intoxicating suburban life
you know you have my number
on a scrap of paper
or did you throw it out along with me?
and another thing
when you forgot me
others remembered
so when you showed up lonely and drunk
not the kind of person I like to get to know who'd make me their mother instead
of a girlfriend
no I didn't want that
and anyway I wasn't available
especially emotionally
and you stopped by his apartment
you know the one I see every other day when you forget I exsist
when you stumble upon eachother twice a year when you need me
why do I always become immature men's mothers?
I have enough mothering to do without that bullshit.
So anyway, I hope your happy
I know your doing fine
yeah and me, I'm getting along
everything's perfect in my life
I have a nice couch
a color t.v.
how about you?