The Blender Board

my last comments of 1998...

First to my friends, both here, and those who come here to read my writings...
I have met some truly wonderful people this year whom I would never have met without the existence of the Blender... And so, first, to

Kirk-
Any words here or anywhere would be an enfeebled attempt to express the gratitude I feel toward you for your creation and maintenance of this wonderful haven on the Web. Many have come and gone, but you hve remained a constant. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving us all this place to share ourselves with each other...

Isolde-
Thank you for sharing in so many ways...

Angel, heartSong-
Thank you for the teasing and the opportunity to get to know you both...

Shady-
Thank you for the kindness and trust...

Eve-
Thanks for "texturizing", and your incredible insight...

deevaa-
Thank you for the opportunity to have you brighten our lives with your vibrant art!

<sigh>
I am SORELY sorry to see ZoE go...
and I hope that Marla comes back...

And to those of you who have written to me with comment or question, thank you ALL for letting me know that the few kernals of truth I sometimes am lucky enough to discover have meant something more than just being a few words strung together in an artful manner.

To everyone-
I wish a wonderful 1999, filled with as much of the experience of loving and being loved as possible...

-K

p.s.-
before the year is through-
Snow-
You were here when I first came to the Blender, and I have often wondered where you went. Gentle friend, write for YOURSELF first... the rest will take care of itself...

Thank you kevin. I think I've found most of myself again. Though I'm still looking for my self. Maybe I'll find it in the new year.
Love is the most important thing, keep it close to your heart always.
§ Live and Love §
Thank you everyone and have a Happy New Year

Snow

Yeah! H A P P Y N E W Y E A R
coochie,coochie,coo......ahhhhhhh! so new,fresh,possible...

Kevin,the New Year has arrived ...you can take off the silly hat and diaper now HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA...

Angel.

snow~I too enjoy your writings...you are very much a part of us...I especially liked "To Angel", hmmm wonder why? LOL
Nice Title :-).Please continue sharing with us...

Angel

Happy Janurary 1st of 1999!

Happy NEW YEAR!!!
Angel ~ I'm glad you liked the poem. Though the title was written out of a deep pain I felt from a girl who dumped me named Angel.....sooo.... :) I don't think you'd like it that much :)

Eneewayyys... Happy New Years everyone. May 1999 be a year of Joy for everyone. :)

Snow

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

I hope to be back now that the holidays are over!

Hello and I hope every one had a safe and fun NEW YEARS EVE!
HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL YEAR LONG!

HI ANGEL HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
KEVIN AND heart Song too.

The January Blender is up, first of 1999.
Man, it's weird typing three of the same digit in a row for the year. And to think, we'll get to do it two years in a row-- most generations have to wait 111 years! And think of the people living in 2222! (Sorry, it's 2AM, I've spent the entire day alternating between Blending the Digest and Zelda on the Nintendo 64, so my a thoughts are a little scrambled.
Anyway, enjoy the Digest. And go see "Shakespeare in Love", it's a great flick (reviewed this month, along with "You've Got Mail")
--Kirk

(okay, I am not in the back of the room any more)

On the January issue-

Congratulations to Isolde, who truly IS the Goddess of Haiku...

and to Kirk, thanks once again for your efforts in the shepherding of this site. As for your Monthly Ramble...

I think that not only do we carry around the emotional scars of every single meaningful relationship, but those from our current involvements as well. The one thing you wrote that hit the bulls eye is that scars DO have a beauty of their own. That is most certainly true of the real poets among us, for some of the most beautiful poetry, be it poignant or otherwise, springs from the clear and simple beauty of those scars, even fresh ones.

Particularly when those we love NOW do or say (or type) things that hurt us, or delay the provision of their attentions or expressions of love for us. When you REALLY love someone, making yourself COMPLETELY vulnerable to them, you WILL get hurt. It is inevitable, as inherently imperfect creatures, we sometimes make blunders of the heart. Other times, our lovers don't exactly respond to OUR romantic or amorous attentions as we hope (or expect). But that too is inevitable. It is also necessary for growth. Our own personal growth, and the growth of our romantic relationships. If love is not tested, it cannot be proven true. You also have to take the sorrow of love and accept its pain in order to experience its joy and the bliss of being loved. So wear the scars proudly. They prove you are not afraid to love...

-K

Congratulations to Misti (NAP), Isolde (Branded), Ra (Sunshine for Breakfast), Carmen (A moment too late),MeLoDy (Eyes)...OH Heck! Congratulations to ALL who made this months Blender digest!!! WOW! 1999 is off and running strong...I just checked out the new sub. page and couldn't believe the activity already there. I better get writing...lol.

Kevin......and YOU have already submitted,commented and READ the Ramble...GEESH..You have been a busy Bee.

Angel

Thank you for this Site. It's exactly what i've been looking for for quite a while. Hope to contribute more as i find the time. A Happy and Prosperous New Year to all!

Crystevin

Hello, this is my first time leaving any commments...so bear w/ me here....<grins> I really admire all of the "regulars'" poems they are really touching....i was just checking and i added a few my self and i found 2 that i really liked and i just wanted to commend those people and tell them that they are writting beautifully!
*Crystevin...i really liked your poem "Lifetime" It is marvelous, and very sweet! <smiles>
*N/A..."The Love" <grins> WOW!...that really touched home...keep up the good work...you are very talented!

Majgik~"Loved One"...OH! this was a sweet one indeed...Loved the last stanza especially...

N/A~Tom~"The Love"...A very well written and endearing Poem...depicting the truest essence of male sensitivity...nice!

Kate~"Anticipate"...wonderful,snappy definition of the word...made me *smile* :-)

Angel

Add "Knowing You", by Edwin to my list of heartwarming male-sensitivity poems

Welcome aboard...guys!

Angel

Kevin, "How Love Works", by Merritt Malloy was a great contribution to our sub. page.........thanks!

Angel

commenting:

Magick--Thank you for you kind comment!

Loved "anticipate" Kate.

To the rest of the "regs" it's been a pleasure reading your material as i scroll thru the back issues of the digest. Thru your eyes and souls lie the poetic spirit and within that is LOVE in it purest form eternally embattled with hate, pain and despair. I look forward to reading the wonderful submissions in the year to come.

Crystevin

Kevin you have been busy! But where are your poems!
Hello you and heart Song and Angel.
Hope you are all going to submit your own soon!

Hi! Happy New Years!
I'm new here and I just wanted to congratulate all you guys on the fine poetry here!

Kate--i loved anticipate

Penny

KatyBeth~"Burning Wrists", a very surrealistic way of handling the struggle of a troubled relationship...I love the way you dramatize the anguished emotion felt there....

Angel

Crystevin~" Soliloquy of Faith in Love"...Words to the wise...'Let your heart speak when your mind debates you', 'Romance lives within us all' 'Free yourself to believe again' and the most important line of all...'What is there if no love?'...nicely done

Angel

KatyBeth~

I loved "In my days by your side"- All you are very talented. Keep writing!

-Jenna-

(mistake in previous comment; read this one)

KatyBeth~

I loved "In my days by your side"- You are very talented. I love all your poems.Keep writing!

-Jenna-

Kirk,

I was just browsing throught the "Blend-o-matic" and i was wondering if there is any chance of some sort of organization there? It gets kind of fustrating when you get the same quote 3 times in a row or go throught the same 8 quotes twice over before hitting a new one. I was just wondering because i remember a quote i really like (i believe it was one of yours) and i can't seem to find it. Do you ever go through and take quotes out?

Jenna

Angel, Crystevin, Penny~

Thanks for the comments on anticipate! I don't get here often to browse the board, and was suprised to see my name. Happy times to you!!!

kate

heart Song ~ "Lust" and "Defy Not the Heart"- Amen, sista

erin ~ "Dreams vs. Reality" - awww...how touching. Nicely done. :)

To Jenna and Angel- Thanks for the comments on my work so far, they're highly appreciated!

*~KatyBeth~*

Jenna:
Right now the Blend-O-Matic is set to random. And it hasn't been updated in far too long. So on my todo list is getting more quotes in, and then an option to go through *every* dang quote, one at a time.

Kirk,

Thanks for the ramble. I think a lot of people (myself included) find your article very appropriate to anxiety that we often feel as well towards the beginning of any new relationship. Thanks.

chinchbug

*runs in late for class again*

OMG everyone!!! what a mission.. I am here! I am here!
I don't know if any of you noticed but I disaappered for awhile! on the 31st our internet connection at home got disconnected (it was a free service while Ade was at university.)

Anyways the 31st here is followed by 5 days of public holidays so there was no way I could get connected again with another provider...

I have never been so glad to have to be back at work... (get my internet/blender fix)

I have a hundred new poems to submit and a whole load of new submissions to catch up with.. and damn a new digest.. *runns about in circles* ahhhhhhh..... *panic*

dee

Re: My decision to make a seperate "X" section in the Digest

I wanted to make sure that no one got my wrong impression about the warning/seperation of X's work in this month's Heart on Sleeve corner. It's not supposed to be anything like moving of Mobius Analcake's stuff to a seperate page, and only a little bit like the warning I gave "What I'll Do To You!" in the November issue. It is, however, a lot like my decision in last February's issue to give some of the more copious writers their own little sections.

I like X's work, and am glad about the experimenting with sensual content it inspired. And maybe this was me after a too long day of assembling the Digest, but it seemed like I was seeing a *large* amount of poems with very similar theme. Also, the works seemed to be a little steamier than in previous months. That combination led me to the the creation of a seperate section that month-- as a way of letting those people so faint-of-heart that they'd rather avoid this work do so(to their loss), and to let someone who really like this work go straight to it.

Anyways, I might reword the notice at the top of the page (incidently, the fact that there was a note with a link at the top of the page indicated that I hoped people might follow it.)

penny -

I definitely identify with "I shouldn't care." I felt like I was reading a much less eloquent entry from my own journal.

kate

Happy New Year all! With all the travels and house guests, I popped in for a day then popped back out, and have fallen way out of the loop. I notice many new names and am anxious to catch up on all the new submissions. I've browsed a few so far and...

kudos to Kevin - get first submission of the year with "Tragedy"

Tristan - the three for Isodole are very visual. Love them all.

And n/a, "The Love" nearly brought me to tears. That's a difficult feeling to capture and you really did it.

And finally I want to say thanks to Kirk. Isodole is of course of the true haiku queen, but I sincerely appreciate you recognizing me. Thanks.

Ohhhhhhhh - I have just conquered the new submissions page... and all I want to say.. is... umm... WOW!

Kev - "Candy for my heart" and it's sequel... *gasp* you go! I love them!!!

and Tristan... your three newest pieces... and particually "Whisper" ... Isolde certainally deserves the best in life.. but man, this girl can't help being the littlest bit jealous...
*pouts*

*naughty grin*

dee

"The only thing I know about Love is that love is all there is...Love can do all but raise the dead."
Emily Dickinson

To Sean...for the inspiration.

I was cleaning out my book-case,
like I once cleaned my heart.
I came accross your picture,
and it caused memories to start.

Memories, not feelings...
for you, my heart's asleep.
The giant fist that clutched it once,
released the hurt so deep.

It's been a while since then,
I'm over you by now.I had forgotten how.

I'll put your picture back in place,
between the pages of my mind,
I had to learn to trust again,

And forever leave you as you once left me,
so very far behind.

Hey there!

First off I'd like to say, I miss Marla and Zoe and my heart is sad.

I have truly been blessed with true friends I have met on the blender! Angel and Kev, you guys are the bomb!

Kevin-I want some candy!

Penny-I shouldn't care. I loved it!

Love Remembered by Andre Boyd broke my heart.

Crystevin-Lifetime. Great!

By the Beach-Liboo, I wish I was there.

In My days By your side-Katebeth, touching, heartbreaking, reality.

Tear Drop by Me, ME TOO Drip Drip. ME TOO!

deevaa-all your words truly touch my heart. Your Great!

*smiling happily*

Heartsong.. wow... "something wonderful" ohhh... I am feeling that same shade of jealous as I did for Isolde when I read Tristan's words.. but *sigh* I know both you and she.. and deserve to have that special someone... *Smiles*

hehehe... man you gotta love this place.. makes you feel warm and fuzzy all over...

I just wanted to say I think all the poetry here is great and I really like this web page :)

beautiful deevaa, let's dance!

HEY Heartsong... *wiggles her butt* sure babe.. any old time, but you gotta make that old guy kev dance too... and that chick Shady.. I hear she ain't so well... if I dance with you.. then she'll wanna come.. and that snogging couple over there in the corner.. Tristan and Isolde, then they'll want to join in.. then that cute babe Angel.. well then she'll be arriving.. then brandi will be arriving with that boyfriend of hers, then snow,... next thing ya know Kirk's got the neighbours complaining about the noise....
(man Heartsong you are such a trouble maker!)

Congratulations to all those whose works were selected for the cover of the January Blender of Love Digest!

Kirk-
Thank you for selecting my poem "Branded" for the front cover. Thanks also for selecting my New Year's Eve tribute to Tristan, Joni Mitchell's "A Case of You". It is a beautiful song, and has great meaning for Tristan and I, so seeing it on the front cover is very touching (I happen to be a musician, and I once sent him a tape of me singing... and that was one of the songs on it).

I have always liked Joni, and you might want to go out and buy yourself a best of Joni Mitchell CD, Kirk, since you seem to like her also... you have had her lyrics on the digest cover two months in a row now! The piece that was posted last month as: A Simple Expression By Dan Taylor, Submitted by Heart4One is actually the title of (and a line from) another Joni Mitchell song "You Turn Me On, I'm a Radio" (copyright Joni Mitchell, 1972, from the album For The Roses). It's nice to see that Joni's work still has staying power after all these years.

Best Wishes-
Isolde

<Big Smile>

deevaa!!!!! It is sooooo good to see you back! You are the life of the party, as always. I really missed your sparkle girl.... funny, how you don't fully appreciate someone until they disappear for a bit! And yes, Tristan and I would love to join you in a 'deevaa dance'....let's twist and shout!

-Isolde

deevaa, I'm gonna dance the night away with TK on my hip, twirling him around! Tossing him back and forth to everyone in the room, cept brandi and that couple, congrigating in the corner! Yikesss! I think I hear the sirens deeva, we'd better dance away!

<blushes>

Hey Deevaa~~~
What is that crack about being OLD? The proper word is "experienced"... <smiles> (oh, and thanks for the kind words on the poetry)

I'll be happy to shake it **dances about** for all you guys (you ARE desperate for a laugh, aren't you!)... hahaha

heart Song and carmen-
Thanks for your compliments as well... At least I know SOMEONE is reading my poetry (LOL)...

(running off to the corner so everyone will stop LAUGHING)

-K

(or trying not too..) Kev we would NEVER laugh at you... only with you.
*giggles escaping*

Hey looks to me like we got ourselves a party!!!

Kevin (Giggling)

You are so silly!

Kirk, I loved the ramble this month, I have been there and
now have the same scar, although I think of it as a "hot button" that gets pushed every time I wait for someone to call or e-mail- I get all paranoid and freaked out when I don't get called/e-mailed back SOON. My summer crush didn't call me back and well, that ended that. And I've just spent the last few days all antsy 'cause I hadn't heard from the guy I'm dating...but well, I've got a date tomorrow, so I guess it's ending happily for now.
Anyway, thanks. You did a good job.
Jennifer

To: Kirk

Thank you so much for including "Nectar" in the first Blender cover page of the New Year! I'm extremely flattered! Great job for all the other poets, as well... Hope everyone had a joyous holiday season!!

Reading thru these comments i'm laughing and enjoying it immensely. Deeva..you're a NUT! *smiles* Good to see some humor threading itself in here.

All of Love Blender's Writers and Contributors:
There are so many great poems and writings and i'd love to comment on all of them, but shoot, i barely have the time to READ all of them. *laughs* Just want to say, ALL of you are what makes this such a great place.

Crystevin

Okay......deevva,
Ya got me up and moving...now what is the latest dance...The hustle? The Bump? Oh! Geesh, I think I'll sit back down again...unless, of course, Ya know the 'watermelon crawl', *smile* Ya'll line-up, I'm gonna go get my boots!!! ...............................LOL
come on and join us, Crystevin.....

Angel

Crystevin,
yes, I am also grateful (eternally) for the fun deevaa brings to us

<waves at the smiling dancer>

<smiles too>

Humor is the tonic that every aching heart needs from time to time (catharsis is not always very much fun, hence the saying that laughter is the BEST medicine)... And laughter is very much a part of romance as well. You simply must be able to share some light moments with the ones you love...

<sigh>

On to a comment...

Isolde,
I am so very grateful that you have shared Tristan's recent work with us. Thank you. It is all incredibly moving. But in particular, "You" wonderfully captures a feeling I have always had, but knew not its perfect expression. This poem was IT...

-K

(looking for the janitor, who must have already gone down the hall)

Angel,

Your short piece "I'll be seeing you" was really touching, in the light of what we were discussing last night... I also find myself always inspired by the thought that in the dead of winter (and yes the winter nights in the high desert are COLD) the promise of spring is right around the corner...

But even the winter is a season for lovers...

(an aside to KIRK - I thought you fixed that word wrap!!!)

-K

Kevin~ I am reading too!!! And I LOVED "Tragedy", but of course you already know that,don't you? But I will tell the others I LOVED "TRAGEDY" THERE!!! *smile*

Angel

OH! Heartsong........you are soooo talented. I loved all your poems especially "Lust", "A Long Ago love" and "Something Wonderful".......You are on a roll *wink*

Angel

*looks about stunned at all the pikers at this party*

Hey Crystevin... me a nut? hrrummphhhh.... *winks*

and Kev, it is just as well I bring fun, my poetry isn't flowing right now! (see the dancing is a cover up for not submitting poetry! LOL but shhhh... don't tell anyone.)

*returning from new submissions page*

"I'll be seeing you" and "one word" - *happy contented sigh*

(I'd better go and do some work and stop causing trouble here)...
dee

to all blenderites--fabulous writing !! I may choose to send some of my own work in, if I ever happen to get up the gumption !!
Jenn

(sitting back, soaking her feet)
I'm getting ready for another round!

Angel! I loved I'll be seeing you... It was wonderfully written! You are truly a talent! I love this dimension of you!

Kevin! Shake your groove thang!

deevaa, we are going to party like it's 1999! oh, it is!
great, there's a reason!

Isolde teach me to flamingo!

Somos seres invisibles,que navegamos en un mundo interior nadie puede conocernos realmente, cada parte de nuestro ser vive intensamente ya sea en el pasado o en el futuro, no entiendo porque tenemos que amar sin medida a alguien que no nos corresponde, y tener que simular que nada sucede cuando en mi interior me dice que si

Somos seres invisibles,que navegamos en un mundo interior nadie puede conocernos realmente, cada parte de nuestro ser vive intensamente ya sea en el pasado o en el futuro, no entiendo porque tenemos que amar sin medida a alguien que no nos corresponde, y tener que simular que nada sucede cuando en mi interior me dice que si

Kirk-

I wanted to thank you for compiling all my poetry into the "X-Files" in the Heart-on-Sleeve section of the January Digest, and also for your kind and complimentary words about my work. I truly appreciate the courtesy you have shown me in this matter.

I also wish to sincerely thank all those who have taken the time to comment on my work over the past few months, and who have made me feel welcome here at the Blender. I have very much enjoyed reading the work of the other poets here, most particularly those whose subject matter inclines towards the erotic.

-X

Isolde-loved your "whisper" and had written one titled the same, thought i'd post it.

Jenn--"Turmoil" Now that exemplifies what having your heart on your sleeve really is. I really identified with the entire poem. *big smiles for your first two submissions*

Hello, everyone. As regular reader, my kudo's to you all ! I have been writing for 15 years, but have not shared much with others. Thought I'd give it a try. Feel free to comment or criticize - both are welcome. Eeeks, gotta go back to work now :-( Take care, all. Jennifer

Jenn-

Glad you did decide to take the jump and submit your work! I know it's not always easy to put a chunk of yourself out there for other people to see. I liked all the work you sent in. . . especially predator. Good times.

kate

Wow. The sites getting on the order of 1000 front page hits a day lately. Wonder if it's the run up to Valentine's Day?

Kevin, I haven't yet fixed the return problem for regular submissions. I put it of before trying to make sure that I had the right idea on the comments page. I think I finally do have it. I'll have two options: the default will be like the comment page is now, where it keeps track of where you physically press return, but then relies on normal HTML word-wrapping. (I might do something so that Tabs and multiple spaces are preserved in HTML as well.) The other option will be as it is now, with the poem slipped into <PRE> boxes. This lets poems that depend on critical spacing (e.g. word art) to still look ok.

HEY!!! something's WRONG!!!.....where's Shady and Misti????
miss you two!

...:-( I miss Marla and ZoE too(

Oh and Jenn...LOVED your work.........especially "aftermath" but, I havn't read "predator", yet. Welcome!

Angel

Danny~"Empty", very touching...

Angel

*trouble walks in*
Hey guys....
been checking out the new submissions....

Jen - your two poems... wow... I hope you are planning to submit more... I very much liked the lines "You blackmail me, with soft words, and deep murmurs, and jail me with desire." What a great image...

"X" As always.. do I need to say more?

Ozmo... I haven't noticed your name about before, but I'll be searching for your new stuff.. I thought "summer" and "windburn" where fantastic...

*grins* I said all that with out making one bit of trouble.. am I good or what....

dee

*singing loudly and off key with her walkman*
"Rock your body, a-front and back... rock to the rhythm, the rhythms gonna rock... Oh carolina... her body it a-swing like me grandfather clock.."

*blushes* hey all just popped in to say I am finally only at home... yeahhaa.... I have a new email address...
deevaa@paradise.net.nz ... (hoping everyone will get a huge hint that she wants email...)

Isolde.... there had damn well better be an email on its way to me... (Re: just read "Knock")

dee

Yes Kevin, love can be found in the 'season' of winter,but in the winter of the heart...it is much harder to find...

Angel

quick note before I leave work ! Kevin - "sweet music" - mmmmm - creates wonderful visions. Misti - "Golden Dawn" - Absolutely fantastic! Angel - "hop the fence" W*O*W- a common occurence that is never put to paper- well done.
Sorry I'm still on the Dec.digest - I'm so far ahead i think I'm first !! Have a great day, all. Jenn

AHA ! Look at that, I was actually on the Jan. digest ! OOOPS! I'll be ok, honest :-)

Fellow Blenderers,

Greetings from France, where we envy the cold weather you're having in the States. Maybe you can't imagine it, but in the "dead of winter", a person in Northern Europe shouldn't have to wake up to a balmy, 15o (sorry, 60o F) day. It's just unnatural. And, as someone mentioned here earlier and as I've always believed, the cold can be a remarkable aphrodisiac.

France (in case you've forgotten) is the place where Public Displays of Affection are acceptable, and couples don't have to apologise for smooching in the middle of a pedestrian thoroughfare ("Where do you think you are, Paris?").

It's also the place where our Western Love basically got started. (By `Western' I don't mean the kind in which we flip our pickup trucks because there's a tear in our beer.) Love was so impersonal in the ancient world, so collective and familial. Marriage partners were often picked for such romantic notions as proximity or how much land they'd inherit. Doesn't give you goosebumps? Suddenly, in 12th-century France (or thereabouts), along came the troubadour poets, Marie de France, Chrestien de Troyes, and so on, weaving magnificent tales about partners, 1 + 1, who adored each other passionately, sometimes to the point of death.

This is where we first heard of Guenievre & Lancelot, Abélard & Héloïse, and Tristan & Iseult (the selfsame!) who took their first swallow of Lovedrink long before the Germans ever heard about them. And countless other couples that taught us what romance was. And usually, it was being in love despite a pile of reasons not to.

I'm over here trying to figure out how it works and, more often than not, why it doesn't. How can a seemingly great relationship just dissolve for practical reasons? Does noone believe in taking risks anymore? And what are the ingredients for the perfect relationship, the One that Sticks?

Anyway, I'm not a poet, but am trying to write a novella based on the last one that didn't work out. A snippet of it is in the new submissions page (under the silly name "Bailamos mucho", made up for the occasion). If someone has a half hour to kill, I'd appreciate their telling me whether it stinks or whether it has potential, and whatever else comes to mind.

Meantime, if anyone has already gone own their own chivalrous Quête and found the answers to the above questions, please share them with us.

Yours,
Derek Eretz

Friends!

Across a table while reading a book
I see her
With green eyes
But not really her’s
Sunglasses for the person she wants to be
The thing she’s hiding behind
To cover the sadness
And the hurt and the pain
Knowing she should be somewhere else
But not sure how to get there
And here I am
Across the table
We look, we talk, we laugh, I cry
I cry for the person I want her to be
The person who becomes what I want
And the person I give up as a result
Give up like a sacrifice

Because I’m not worthy
She’s perfect
Perfect in all her flaws

And now it’s too late
Happiness has moved on
Stop the clock
Turn off the music
It doesn’t belong in my house

Damn the gods
Damn that altar
Damn it all to hell!
I gave up too early
I gave up too soon
I should’ve tried harder

Paul~ I really enjoyed the emotion and drama in this one...You need to make sure it gets on the submission page though...

Angel

I LOVE THIS WEB SITE, IT HELPS MY BOYFRIEND AND I UNDERSTAND THE QUALITIES OF LOVE

Gotta love that new email address.... hehehe

Snow.. your new piece is very moving I loved it... glad to see you have *it* back...

Ditto on deevaa's remark Snow..........I really enjoyed it and am also glad to see you writing again

Angel

Thanks Deevaa and Angel :) After much soul searching, and many a bad moods, I've gotten the will to write back. :) Though it's not really the best poem, but I'm kindof proud of it :) Thank you two for noticing it :) I'm busy copying all my poems that I've written onto computer. So far I have about 120 and still alot more to go :) Talk to yall later :)
Snow (back after a melt)

§ Live and Love §

Just found this site, what a wonderful respite from the mad, mad world. Keep up the good work.

Kevin - "her hands" how beautiful is that? ... I have no answer... unless "too beautiful" counts...

*looks about at the empty school room*
...and where is everyone? is it a holiday and no-one told me? shhheesssh!

Kevin...I'm with Dee...."Her Hands" is very touching (no pun intended!! ) Schoolroom's not completely empty,Dee, just not finding enough time at work to play ! good day, all. Jenn

(looking around and seeing a lot of people out sick...
<thinks, NO, deevaa, no one is on holiday! Where is everyone?!?!?!?!?!>)

Deevaa, Jenn,
Thank you for your kind words...

(hides on the side of the room, ducking behind a desk)

-K

When I look in your eyes a smile comes to your face. That smile is a thing I could never Replace. The flame in your heart has now Begun, This is the begining of all our fun. This seems like a Feeling real sent from up above. I'm fealing weak I think I'm in Love. The feelings we havejust aren't the same I feel like a GOD just say'n your name Is this Love? Is this for real? I cannot explain what it is that I feel I look at your now and I know I've been Blesed. To me you Look Better than all the rest. Your Look is that Not matched by a Rose. The more I see you the more my love grows. Our unity is that of two doves. I'm feeling real weak I think I'm in Love.

WHEN I LOOK IN YOUR EYES A SMILE


When I look in your eyes a smile comes to your face. That smile is a thing I could never Replace. The flame in your heart has now Begun, This is the begining of all our fun. This seems like a Feeling real sent from up above. I'm fealing weak I think I'm in Love. The feelings we havejust aren't the same I feel like a GOD just say'n your name Is this Love? Is this for real? I cannot explain what it is that I feel I look at your now and I know I've been Blesed. To me you Look Better than all the rest. Your Look is that Not matched by a Rose. The more I see you the more my love grows. Our unity is that of two doves. I'm feeling real weak I think I'm in Love.

Man... me, Kev and Jen... sure is quiet with out Shady and Zoe, and Angel and Heart Song... and *bursts into tears* Isolde, and X *sobs* and Snow, and man Romeo and all the rest of you guys... come back!!!

I'm here deevaa! Just being unusually quiet. I'm having a complicated life at the moment (which also explains the reduction in my poetry submissions), but I am currently in the midst of reading through the entire new submissions page as therapy, so I'm sure I'll be my usual noisy, opinionated, comment-filled self in the very near future.

Later-
Isolde

Just finished reading the entire new submissions page for January (guess I was a bit behind...lol). There were many excellent pieces, and it was nice to see so many new contributors. I apologize for the length of this post (but that's what happens when I get behind!). Here are some of the pieces I was most struck by:


heartSong-
"A Long Ago Love" - Beautiful & evocative, I could picture the old couple from the photo.
"Untitled" - I loved this one! A brilliant metaphor and an image that certainly strikes a deep chord in the heart of this poet...

strawberryjelly-
"Moroccan Roses" - A poignant vignette, beautifully rendered. I particularly liked the "dark path" imagery...it captured the dilemma of this type of situation very well.

Mario Esposito-
"Opera" - My Italian isn't strong enough to have grasped this poem in it's entirety, but the portions I did get were beautiful, and I loved the feel of these words on my tongue as I read it aloud. Would you consider posting the English translation of this piece?

KatyBeth-
"In my days by your side" - A good thumbnail sketch of the metamorphosis of a relationship. Very moving.
"Fool Was I" - Quite striking. My favorite of all your poems thus far.

Saint Exupery-
"definitions" - Thank you, Kate, for posting these beautiful and timeless words.

"me"-
"Chapter 13" - I particularly liked the first and last stanzas.

Evalani-
"Passions Ascent" - Nicely done!

Prince Ali-
"Secret Dreams" - Sweet and well written.

Jenn-
"aftermath" - Very nice. A well expressed sentiment and image. An excellent effort at a rhymed and metered poem.
"turmoil" - Liked the line "...you jail me with desire..."
"on being a mistress" - Well written (but sad)
"stolen moments" - Captures the essence of this particular situation well.

Angel-
"I'll be seeing you..." - A very beautiful and hope filled poem, which uses the newness of spring theme very well. I will save this one to refresh myself with when I am feeling down.

deevaa-
"Let my heart have wings" - Sweet and romantic (and pretty on the page)
"into the depths" - Very passionate!
"wanting" - Quite nicely done. I can definitely identify with this poem!!
"love letter" - Um...did I miss something? I hope there is an e-mail on it's way to me...

Kevin-
"Candy for my heart" - Short and sweet! (no pun intended)(well, maybe a little pun)
"Deep" - Beautiful and moving. Talk about the arrow of a poem hitting the mark...this one certainly applies to my life lately.
"Flatline" - An unusually dark piece for you...did I miss something?
"Her hands" - Wow! This piece is romantic, beautiful, poignant, sweet, heartfelt...sigh...


Just my two (or more) cents worth-
Isolde

Would it be posible to find out who Lynn Cutler is.
I wonder if she is the famous femminist that I hear about??

I am sorry to sound so dumb.

Isolde... *winks* good to see you here... I will email.. oh and thanks for the comments.

Kevin... I am still blown away by "her hands" .. I think I have read it like 10 times now... I keep coming back to it... maybe it is the absence of X...

Jen... *smiles* thanks for the email, and ditto what Isolde said about "mistress" also the one after it which I have forgotten the name of... ahh... "stolen moments" They were both great, I really like your style!

dee

*blushing* wow, thanks for the kind mention, Isolde (and Dee,Angel,Kate & Crystevin, too). i am greatly pleased. i feel very welcome here, and have never realized what a catharsis it can be to unload all that internal junk that has been clogging up my system for so long. it's like i can feel my blood run a little faster now. i am going to keep submitting, if just for the good it does me.
Kirk, blender-keeper extrordinaire (aack-where is my spell-checker?)-- thank you for being the keeper of all that is good and right in the world-our thoughts and hearts.

good day to all, Jenn

Jen, I noticed Isolde liked the same section of your poem "turmoil" ... thats cause great minds think alike... (hehehe... I am flattering myself big time!!!)

I have decided that you guys all have to put on New Zealand accents when you read my poetry by the way... it'll make them sound better... (gotta have some excuse!)

dee

jenn~"Stolen Moments",
'reality smothers
this secret fire'
GREAT line!!! And often true!
I'm really enjoying your works and looking forward to more... *smile*

Snow~"Rain Tapers OFF"...Loved the metaphor of flash of lightening to flash of love! This was a really nice piece...well written,unique and clever! :-)

Angel

Thanks Deevaa. I read the poetry here a lot, a while back I posted some too. I don't often get in a writing mood, but when I do I try to post what I compose. I really like the rythem in your latest poems, the pauses make it seem like they're coming at you in waves.
Ozmo-

*winking* ooohhh.... X is back... *jumping up and down* yeahhaaaa.... those latest two... Gotta say I love em!
(in particular "Sticky Fingers" ... I feel a painting coming on...)

Let me see... Jen I liked your two new ones also...
Heartsong... you are a nut (if you don't mind me saying so... hehehe)
Ozmo ... I look forward to your next "inspired moments" ...
Isolde ... thinking of you... let me know if I can help, in any way.
Shady? you STILL sick girl?

and

I have a new painting looking for a poem... it is a shooting star... with the words "life star" anyone got anything?
I was inspired but can't seem to get past the first few lines... email me! (actually I love getting email.. just email me for the hell of it... LOL *winks* me and Kev the king and queen of email!!)

dee

oh and Ozmo, thanks for the comment on my poetry.. I hope you read them with a New Zealand accent!! LOL

(ok I am going now... *giggles and runs out*)

dee

Hey Angel,
Thanks for the comment, I was trying to write that one outside during a storm, I was able to scrape it all together and keep the water soaked paper intact long enough so I could transfer it onto something more perm :) But it had a ring of truth to it :) Thanks for the coment:)

Islode.. oh wow, I also love the Lady of Shallot, infact Waterhouses' print of her is the only painting in my house that is not one of mine...

Your poetry - all three of the new ones, wow... I can feel your hurt and your confusion... I just wish I knew the magic spell to fix it all...

If there is anything I can do.. just let me know.

dee

Isolde~ "Love's Tapestry",and "Love's Tapestry Redux"...both beautifully written,such imagery! A mouthful for our Haiku goddess!!!

KatyBeth~ "Tidal Wave", if only life could live up to our expectations...<sigh>

jenn~ "lifted up",A nice one on NIXING the game play and the need for balance in a relationship...

Kevin~ "breathless again", ahhhh Kevin this one is so sweet...male sensitivity at its finest :-)

X~ "My Lips"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~WOW!!!

Angel

He he he(with a Shady laugh) I submit this to you,deevaa...

Shooting Star

Midnight Blackness
speckled with twinklers
little reminders of the existence of life
glimmers of hope that this is all Real
and not just someone else's dream of life
...and there IT goes
shooting across the sky
...YOUR reminder
your Life Star!

Angel

OMG! I am bing so spoilt...

So far Angel, Isolde, and Kev (who was very fast off the mark I might add...) have all taken on the challange of a poem to go with lifestar.. I am soo lucky... maybe I will have to make a page with them all on...
Thank you all... and if any one has any more inspiration... feel free to share it with me...

*dancing dee*

Does anyone know who syndicates Life in Hell? Our new Newspaper here in Taiwan wishes to get publication rights. Thanks!

Mark Wolfe
taipeitimes@hotmail.com

I found this site by accident looking for a little something for my girl on valentines Day,I didn't quite find what I was seeking but really enjoyed some of the poems here.I really liked THOSE by X :) and Angel and Jewgee.
I have bookmarked this site.

Thanks for the comment Joe. You have found a wonderful site and I'm sure if you read the archives you will find what it is you are looking for.

Angel

Thanks for the info on Adam Green! I thought maybe the book "What Were You..." had been mystically placed into my hands and perhaps Adam didn't even exist. I can't wait to get the new book! Are they the only two he'll have then? Does he have a web address or email? He is truly a sick (yet hysterically on-the-mark) man. Thanks again.

Oh... there is so many new submissions!!
X - *gasp* I loved "Union" and have emailed it to a few people... *naughty giggle* ..

Angel, heart Song, and Kev... you have all been busy! *smiles*

*sigh* I have read back over the past months board and I have been talking far too much!!! I am gonna shut up for awhile... *groans* or at least try to...

dee

Oh deevaa...

I just saw your beautiful poem, "I wish". I am so moved by your words of friendship and support. You have no idea how much they mean to me at this most difficult time in my life. You are a true friend....thank you, with all my heart.

Always,
Isolde

Joe
So glad that I read your comment about my poem. Been a big fan of the Blender for almost a year and that was my first submission. Now I think I have the guts to sumnit again.
THANK YOU!

Julie

X
About Union - one word......

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Julie

jewgee~ I really loved...I mean LOVED!!! "Like a Moth to a Flame", beautiful metaphor...very well-written...will knock you over with the truth! Great job and welcome :-)

Angel

X~ "Union", ditto on jewgee's WOW!!!

Angel

well I'm glad everyone else was inspired on Friday. I was too busy digging myself out from under a record-breaking
snowfall ! Uuuughhhh. Anyways, here goes:
Isolde - 'hardwired' and 'just words' both awesome !
Kevin - really enjoyed that sonnet
Angel - 'sin' and 'fold' *clapping* excellent!
and like everyone else says,
X- 'union' - SU-perb!!
jewgee-congrats on your first submission ! take it from
another new blenderite...there is no other place to feel more welcome.
Happy Day everyone !! Jenn
mo

*wiggles in with coffee&smiles*
hey all.. just a quick note..

Isolde.. still thinking of you... drop me a line if you need anything...

Kevin... did I inspire any poetry??? hmmm?

Jenn... man.. we don't get snow where I am at... sometimes I wish we did... *giggles* not today...

Angel... you have been inspired.. I LOVED "What you do to me"

X... I thought that "Sacrament" was VERY erotic... *blushes* gotta stop thinking about that image... hehehe...

Ok... that's me for the day.. gonna go get my hair cut now, when I come back I will look real hot.. so watch out.

dee

I'm so impressed with all of the caring I see flowing between everyone here. It's heartening to see a group of people who are so far from egocentric. It's made me smile. Thank you.

Angel... "My sweet valentie" is beautiful... (as are you my lady)

you guys sould see my sexy haircut!!

*yawn* G'mornin everyone...man, it's, like, 6:52 am and the first thing I do is check the blender! addicted or what !

Kevin..TUB is exquisite!! the drain plug reference ! then the vortex thing ! man oh man can you put feelings into words!
Good Day, folks. Jennifer

Kevin~ "Tub", You describe heartache well in this one...insensitive words can squeeze the very life out of even the most seasoned heart! And can even hurt WORSE then those sticks and stones!!!

Heartsong~ "of love", my own little Emily...:-)

Love you two guys...ya know that, don't ya? *smile*

Angel

A Teddy Bear

A child's plaything
a comforting toy to cuddle
when all is dark
and not right
even when it's light
a joy

OOPS~ For a friend :-)

Teddy Bear

A child's plaything
a comforting toy to cuddle
when all is dark
and not right
even when it's light
a joy
but, in troubled times
a friend to clutch tight
with all your might
who won't let go
'til you do
to end your fright
always a warming sight
to see a child
hug her Teddy Bear

Angel

Thanks ,Dee for the lovely comment on "My Sweet Valentine",and also on ME!!! You are too kind...as is reflected in your poem to Isolde, "I Wish"...Such a lovely gesture of friendship...I was inspired!

Angel

jenn! "Rythm",had a very nice BEAT (pun intended :-) Very nice comparison of instruments to your needs...

Angel

*suffles in with a take-away latte*
Man... This babe is tired..

Angel, & Jen.. you guys seem to have something in the water that is inspiring you both... I need some of that.

Not only inspired but all of the works are beautiful... *smiles*

And Angel... no.. I am not too kind, just us New Zealanders *winks at Jen* know how to take care of those we care for...

dee

Hi Deevaa ! Nothin' in my water ! (although I wish I had a bottle in my desk drawer! Whew --what a long day!)

Hey Angel, I love the valentine theme ! Especially "Haunted Valentine." Maybe this year (even tho I'm single again) Valentines Day won't be so icky for me with friends like you to share it with!

catcha later, Jenn

Everyone has been very busy this past week! Once again (for what it's worth), here is my two cents:

Jenn-
"what she's got" - Good poem, fantastic closing line, expresses perfectly that sentiment which I think we have all felt at one time or another.
"lifted up" - Well done, and so very true.

chichbug-
"Transparency" - Very moving. The last stanza is stunning.

Elizabeth-
"When I close my eyes" - Nice poem on a topic near and dear to my heart.

Jewgee-
"Like a Moth to a Flame" - Well written using an interesting poetic device (the alternating lines). Liked the repetition at the beginning and the end.

heartSong-
"Of Love" - Very sweet

Angel-
"Quandary" - I liked this piece. A theme close to my heart.
"Sin" - Clever and cute, and the visual layout was nice.
"Blessed Curse" - A good description of the heart at war with itself.
"You are the artist..." - A very vivid image.

Kevin-
"breathless again" - Beautiful, especially the final line.
"Download" - Continues on the theme quite nicely...
"Sonnet - 15 Jan," - Nicely done and a touching sentiment.
"DEEP" - This poem touches me deeply.
"Another New Year" - A good representation about the confusions of love and life.
"Tub" - Sad and true, how easily the words of those we love can wound us. Excellent imagery.

William-
I loved all three of your poems. Each was exceptionally well written, but I had to comment specifically on:
"My Muse" - Beautiful and very moving. I loved the line "...That I my very soul in you confide, Each time I pen a sonnet such as this...". I believe someone here at the Blender commented recently that one of the highest compliments one poet could pay another was to wish that they themself had written the words they so admire. I thus pay you this compliment. I hope we see many more submissions of your work.

I would also like to thank all those who have taken the time to comment on my recent work, and most especially those who have been there to support me emotionally during this difficult time I am going through. It means a great deal to me.

As always,
Isolde

Isolde~ "Heart Wings"... all we need to soar!!! Beautiful
I care

Angel

Islode... ditto what Angel said about Heart Wings... It goes perfectly with my painting.. Let my heart have wings.. *smiles* I have the image in my head now.. and your name is written in the heart...

ANGEL - ISOLDE - JENN

Thanx ssssoooooooo much for the comments, gives me much more confidence when im writing, (always doubt myself)!

and Jenn your right it feels like i know everyone just from reading whats in their hearts!!!!!

You guys have made my day!!!!!!!!!!

Julie

KEVIN

TUB!!!!!!! really hit home, was there about 6 mos ago...
we must a been in the same tub.
Thanx for putting in to words i could not, im emailing this to him right way!

Jewgee

jenn~ WOW!!! WOW!!! WOW!!! "Skin"..........need I say more! :-) and "Dead Stroke", struck a cord in me ;-).....good job!!!

Angel

Kevin~ Thank you for mentioning me as your inspiration for"cooling off", it was a very nice spin-off of my "In the Spring" And resonantly done... :-)

Angel


HEARTSONG~YES, I AM SHOUTING...WHERE ARE YOU?

Dee~ Did you steal SUSAN POWTER"S hair??? lol

WOW - I have to that you all so very much... I have been so inspired by the poetry on this page that I have started "really" painting again... (the last few months it has only been little bits ... nothing major) but ... now..
I am working on something inspired by X's "Union" you sould see it.. it is only half done.. but.. I gotta say it is going to be good. (crossing her fingers and hoping not to jinx it)

Jenn - Skin really hit that feeling on the head.. the feeling of wanting to be "inside" someone...
- In your suitcase... I know someone that said something very similar when his wife left.. he told me that she took his smile in her handbag...
- Coffee.... I have always wished for mornings like that... to have coffee brought in and snuggle up... ahhh..

X - Worship... bring a girl to her knees why don't you? hmmm? My paintbrush is twitching already!!! and bluelight... I just hope I have enough blue paint...

Shady.. where the hell are you.. and go check your email girl..

Kev... *smiles* thanks for those poems... although that painting got put aside for abit.. while I paint flames... *giggles*

*winks* best go do some work... oh and Angel ... don't joke about my hair.. Susan and I... we are like this... *giggles and runs out*

No one notices when I'm here, no one notices when I'm gone.

Isolde: Thank you for you encouragement. I have only shared this poetry with three people who are very close to me and I can't be sure of their opinions. You have also inspired me to try haiku. I do like structure!

William: The fact that you have mastered the sonnet form shows that you do, indeed, like structure. I am pleased to know we will be seeing even more of you fine work.

I wanted to say that I like most of the poetry here a lot. I used to just read the main page but now I read the heartsleeve stuff too. But I was confused about something in January. One of the poems on the main page had a comment with it about how to pronounce the word *desire*. I didn't understand what the comment meant at first, but when I looked up what strict haiku was, it seemed like the comment was kind of an insult to people from Texas, because we think *desire* only has two syllables. So I looked the word up in a dictionary, and the pronunciation guide in the dictionary said it only has two syllables. How many syllables do you people think it has?

(whispering from the back of the room again)

Hello Everyone...
I do check the Board every day (at least 3-4 times *sheepishly shrugs*)... Can't believe I haven't said anything since LAST Monday...

Dee-
monarchs of E mail? naaaaaaaah... (as long as you are happy, dear, luv the hair!) I whole-heartedly agree with you. I am happy not only to know you are painting, but that you share my affinity for the work of "X" -* wow *- isn't that work GREAT?!?!?! I LOVED writing poems for your paintings! Those poems are my gifts to you...

Kirk-
I was most pleased to see you temper your words regarding the works of "X", by the way. The body of these poems are most decidedly NOT deserving of a "warning" label you had originally placed there at the first of the month (this smacked too much of "Parent Advisory" stickers on the CDs at the local music outlet, which **really** BOTHERED me >:-( , as an 'artist'). The works of "X" encompass an integral part of TRUE romantic love that has *not* been treated with the proper respect oft-times around here in the past.

Angel, Jenn, Isolde, Jewgee-
Thank you very much for your kind words, particularly with regard to "Tub." The imagery just kind of popped into my head, and it latched itself onto a feeling I have had for quite some time. Words DO wound...

one comment about a poem...

Isolde-
Your poem "Pavlovian" struck so deeply within me that it nearly took my breath away... The response you describe runs far deeper than simply the ringing of a bell or a knocking at the door (or in my particular case, there is a feature in ICQ that will audibly voice "user is online"). I remember when hearing those three words out of my computer's speakers (a sound I have not heard for over a month now from that special someone) how my heart would LEAP headlong into my throat, THE SAME feeling as if I were seeing the object of my affection in the flesh. Much more than simply a physical Pavlovian behavioral response...

<sigh>

Thank you for sharing...

-K

Mike:
Interesting. You're right, the dictionary lists it as 2 syllables, but I've always heard a sharp enough bend in that "second" syllable to make it three. Dee - Zie - Er (same strutures as Tee - Die - Fer) I don't understand why the word "liar" has two syllables but "desire" has three- living in New York, Ohio, and New England, they both sound the same. Maybe I'll ask about it on the newsgroup alt.usage.english.

K:
Regarding the descriptor of X's work-- I caught some flak before for not having any kind of similar descriptor on my "Love Bite" stories on the main prose page. The difference between that kind of notice and the "Parental Advisory" is who it's aimed at. Most buyers of that CD know what they're getting into, but a third party (the parent) might not. The notice on the page is so the reader knows what to expect. I used the word "warned" (aimed explicetly at the "faint of heart") at first, but it was more of a notice than a warning.

I just returned and was thrilled to see some valentine poems here. A special thanks to Angel for My sweet valentine. Do you think I can use it beings I am a man?

*strolls in languidly coffee in hand*

Hey hey hey all - It is Friday here and I couldn't be happier!! (that is Friday.. I mean.)

Isolde -
Talisman... *smiles* It must be nice to have a little piece of him... I believe that each of my paintings is a little piece of my heart (which is why it is so hard for me to sell them... how can I put a price on my heart...)
Simple Math also - so eloquent (oh... spelling?) I love the images that you can place in my head with just a few words.

Kevin -
*Curtsy's to her king* Morning my Royal Highness... Body Language... ohhh, *winks* you know I would like to see more here...

Jewgee - (hoping I have that spelt right)
I LOVED Take me... I was giggling and gasping at the same time..

Well.. time for the deevaa to get back to work... oh, - the remarks about the pronunciation issue, now when I read that Kirk - (not being in the states mind you...) I read your statement as light hearted joke.. and as for the "X" files ... you know I am not one of "those of the faint of heart" But, I think it is great that they all be together, and any warning is fair... as for your prose, I actually was reading some of it the other day... and man... WOW.... (not gonna say a word more...*blushes* I liked the one about the popsicles... )
You do a great job Kirk.. not a single word of criticism could ever pass my lips about the job you do here...

take care of your hearts..
dee

*hands everyone in the Board room wet noodles for lashing*

I'm sorry I have been absent for so long!!! Things have been wildly busy, and I have not had much of time, least of all time to get into the Blender...:-( Nor time to write unfortunately. I have good and bad news...the good is I am happy and things are going very well, and the bad is that that affects my writing, ALOT, so I have not written in well over a month.

I just wanted to drop in and say hi to everyone...

Kev, Angel, I talk to you all everyday now...thanks to ICQ...:-) If any of you would like to get in touch with me, my nickname is, of course, Shadygirl. I forget the number, it's 2884____ something...

Dee - remember girl, I'm here...

Misti?!?! Where are you girl? Do you have e-mail? If so, please e me! I've been thinking about ya, and wondering how u've been...!

heart - I ICQed you, but I guess you haven't been on ICQ in the past couple of days. I got your Badtimes email...hehe...very cute...:-) write me!!

Marla, Romeo, Isolde, X, erin, of course Kirk, and everyone I am forgetting in my haste, I hope everything is well, and I miss you all! Things should die down in about a month or so, I'm praying!!!

Talk to you soon!

Everyone always does a beautiful job expressing themselves on this page. I don't write here much, but I have to say:

Isolde~ I have enjoyed all of your work thoroughly...esp. one of your latest "Tribute." No words can do love justice.

Jewgee~ LOVED "Take me" *blush*

Angel~ "Conquer me" Lovely rhythm (sp?)

%~KatyBeth~%

Joe, I see no reason why you could not use the poem for your girl...If you can sing sweet and divinely, that his :-)
I really appreciate your kind remarks and that is one lucky girl to have someone so dedicated to pleasing her on Valentines Day <sigh>. Oh, and thanks for inspiring me to write the Valentine ones...guess you already know you did!
Good day...

KatyBeth~ thank you for the comment on "Conquer Me", and noticing it's rythem...actually I had a song in mind when penning it,but fell short a few stanzas...lol Your poetry does not go unoticed by me either...I love the journeys your words take me on...you let my imagination soar :-)

Angel

SHADYGIRL~ So glad to see you back...and with a dynamite poem as well...ahhhhhhhhh! "The Way Shakespeare Did"...'Your name filled my mouth...you stole my air'
WOW!!! Way to go Shady! *smile*

Angel

Angel!!! Thank you so much girl...(even though all your flattery has broken my neck...small price...:-)

Yeah, I'm back..:-) Happily..:-)

Happy Friday everyone!

Isolde...the Artifact Trilogy...The End..such an amazing
expression of thought and feeling...-so many people change their mind on a dime about who and why they love. I think it would be better if people would stop promising themselves to their partner for the rest of their days, and commit fully to just this moment, right now. No one is able to look ahead and know how we will feel even ten minutes from now. Wow, I really, really liked how you've put into words thoughts that have been running through so many heads and hearts.Perhaps that is why I enjoy writing. Words come much too easy from the mouth, but require energy to flow from the pen.
Eeek, I'm rambling ! Again,Isolde...Excellent!
Jenn

Thank you Jenn, so very much, for your kind words about my "Artifact Trilogy". That was an intensely personal one for me, so much so that I almost didn't share it. But if it touched even one person, I'm glad now that I did.

Always,
Isolde

Wow - it all started with you Isolde.. your trilogy brought tears to my eyes... I am sitting at my computer at home - Saturday morning here.. in my nightshirt no less... and reading your trilogy... my heart is aching and reaching out to you.. (((hugs)))

then Shady - The way Shakespare did.. made me smile... no need to be gentle with you chick... it was a great piece...

and then damn you Kevin!!! the tenderness and caring in your three new ones made those tears spring to my cheaks again.. I am NEVER gonna forgive any of you!!!

*going to the kitchen to get coffee and hide*

(standing over in the corner)

deevaa...

heard me cryin' huh?


Isolde-

How could ANY words express the ache I feel after having read your Trilogy? They cannot. How could I convey what is within my heart textually? I sometimes (like now) question whether anything that has EVER existed IN my heart might ever mean enough to last forever, because I feel so naive sometimes for actually BELIEVING in a forever.

I always believed that sincerity, honor, and love were not just letters on a page, electrons on a computer screen, or the vessels of the air we breathe when we move our lips a certain way. Words should always convey more than the diction they supposedly contain. They used to. They used to convey a way of life, now they are often used as reflections of the throw-away culture that preaches transience as opposed to permanence. As a lover of words, I wonder, am I doing nothing more than shouting at the storm? Am I losing it as does King Lear? (Do **I** want to condemn the human race?) Is all my shouting in vain?

Or is my own metaphor for myself more apt? I don't know... Today I question everything...

-K

Thanks for all the compliments lately. I was very moved that deevaa would be inspired to paint something because of a poem I wrote. You are all very kind and generous with your praise. I also liked Kevin's idea of combining the haiku form with an erotic theme. Maybe I'll try some myself. ;-)

If everything in this world was without any doubt, would life be worth living? Would it make love interesting? Would it be nice to know if someone said: "I love you" and it would be real forever?

A world with no doubts about anything would, indeed, be quite boring, but I don't believe anyone here has suggested that such a world would be desirable. I personally do not think that "doubt" is what makes love "interesting"... unless one is more enamored with the chase and sees love as some kind of game to be played for sport.

And YES, in my opinion it would be nice to know that if a person gave their word of honor, whether it relates to love or friendship or business or any other matter of importance, it would be nice to know that the person giving their word had considered well before they gave it, and that they had every intention of keeping it. Previous generations in Western culture, and even current generations in many other cultures, did not and do not have a problem with the concept of keeping one's word of honor. It is a sad commentary on our own culture that so many in it apparently take this issue so lightly, and fall back instead on the "new" concept of: "Hey, as long as I am happy at this moment, as long as I get what I want, what else matters?"

Finally, someone can say "I love you" without adding the "forever" part. If they don't think they can, or want to make such a weighty promise, they certainly don't have to. I am just bothered by those who choose to voluntarily make such promises, without thinking about what they are really doing and saying. In my opinion, it all comes back to honor.


-Isolde

This is without exception the best love poetry site I've looked at, and I think I've looked at a couple hundred. Two or three of your poets spoke directly to me with their words, and "X" is the greatest. (More of these, please.) As a visual artist, I wish I could express myself as clearly as some of you have. Good Job!!!

Isolde~ I don't believe I have ever read a more touching and sadly true depiction of what flippant love can do to the heart,the soul, the mind of the victim of that love ...Your TRILOGY was a banner to this time we now live in: "A throw-away society",as Kevin earlier stated...And it is these times that weigh so heavily on our minds and keep us from venturing too close to this 'love',and by doing this, I am afraid,we keep ourselves from truly experiencing love at all. This is a TRAGEDY in the truest GREEK sense of the word...WE have robbed our hearts blind!!!

thank you,Isolde
Angel

X - your painting is in your hotmail account *blushes* I hope you like it...

Kevin - there is a painting on my easal.. and it was inspired by you my dear friend... TUB... A man made of only water and a heart, being pulled down the drain... I will show you before any other.

Isolde - Take care of your heart.. I am here if you need me.

I haven't checked the new submissions page.. so I might be back... dee

*fanning myself with the painting I just scanned*

Oh wow.... Kev!!!!! Oh *big wide smiles* mmmmm.... I have no words... I feel honored to have shared those with you... thankyou! (I know you are shy of sharing more intimate works publicly... hence I will tell you my faverite via ICQ!!)

and X... I liked the image that "trail" left in my head...

dee

i think this poem should be included in this page:


I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations that fire shoots off.
I love you as ceratin dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close when I fall asleep.

---Pablo Naruda

I found this page while surfing for romance... Valentine's day is comeing after all. And I fell "in love" with it. this is one of thebest romance oriented pages I've ever surfed to, and the poems have given me all the valentine's ideas i needed.

Isolde: The last stanza of the Bob Dylan song you submitted struck me like a punch in the stomach. . . . so so true (discontented sigh) Thanks for sharing your catharsis with the blenderites.

Katie

I was hoping that maybe you would be able to get the lines from the scene in "When a Man Loves a Woman" where Andy Garcia talks about Meg Ryan's smile. It is at a AA meeting right after she gives a speech. Thank you very much. The quote is one of the greatest ever written about a woman's smile.

Thoughts of a Pilot (Off to the Gulf)

I met you when i was half way though
I loved you as soon as I met you
Here we are, happy together
we knew rough waters ahead we must weather
Honor, Courage and Commitment call me off to fly
Please God, be with me, I cannot leave, I cannot die
I don't care if I never take another breath,
but don't give her the pain of my death
So here I am all alone,
flying at thirty thousand feet over the combat zone
If I look ahead al I see is night
but down below is the raging fight
back at home she lies in bed
those awful thoughts run through her head.
The bright red flares lit up the sky
Not, tonight, I would not die
But I've seen those women dreesed in black
the ones that know he's not coming back
Not in a sordid black body bag
but he's in the casket covered by the flag
he fought so brave and loyal too
but all she knows is she'll be alone
I don't want to leave my baby this way
I want to fight, serve, and fly
but I won't leave my baby, I will not die

(Laughing Out Loud) Okay Angel I see your point. But I have been known to sing softly when in the right mood :)

Joe~...I have too:-)

Angel

Joe and Angel stop it!!! *giggles* hehehe...

OK all it is Tuesday here.. talk to me.

dee

Isolde - Please don't stop sorting. I don't know who Dan S. is or was to you, but I loved his "Wildflower Eyes". As you inspired it, you must be pretty special.

William - Your comment on "Wildflower Eyes" made me stop and think. When I came across those poems, I felt only bitterness and betrayal at what I saw as the insincerity and guile with which Dan insinuated himself into my heart and my life. I posted those pieces as something of an ironic adjunct to my "Artifact" trilogy. However, your interpretation is a clearly a more positive way to view those old poems. Perhaps if I look closely, and concentrate very hard, I will be able to see the glass as half full (at least as far as these poems are concerned).

Isolde - I don't know anyone who can write such poetry without feeling the emotion. I certainly must be inspired(and I do have a best friend who inspires me constantly). I call them our poems because they would not exist without her. The same thing is true of the poems Dan wrote. They exist because of you. Whatever bad happened in your relationship can not erase the beauty that created those poems.

William, I only know Isolde through this page, and I agree with you 100% ... the beauty that I can see shining from the page with each poem that she shares with us is blinding... I am glad that you felt moved to comment...

Isolde... *smiles* I know the the story... and I still agree with William.. (((hugs)))

Today I just want to get on a plane and fly and meet each and every one of my blender friends... The weather here is stunning... and I want to sit in a cafe with a group of friends and talk and laugh... hands up who wants to come...

dee

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..........Funny DEEVAA.....real funny!
Getting a little too mushy for ya??? :-)

Angel

*WAVING FRANTICALLY* at the POWTER imposter.......*ME ME OH DEE Pick ME*.....And I'll bring Kevin and Heart too...if I have to drag 'em by the ears..........lol

Angel

I just wish I could fit into that lyrca stuff like Susan Powter..
(mental image of deevaa trying to hold her breath while squishing into something real tight and shiny.... ahhhhhh...)

I wanted to thank those people who have been and continue to be so supportive of me as I go through this painful, bitter, angst-filled, tumultuous and hopefully cathartic time of my life. On the bright side, at least it has awakened me to the fact that I am able to write something other than sweet, romantic haiku and other (mostly) happy little poems. Guess you are all getting to see the other side of me, my ‘heart of darkness’. I don’t think I am quite finished with this phase yet, but I am working on it.

I wanted to personally thank deevaa, Kevin, Angel, William, Kate, heartSong and Jenn for their support, empathy and encouragement, particularly those of you who have spent time (sometimes a considerable amount of time) with me via chat or e-mail.

Angel, thank you so much for sharing “Why Ask This Of Me?”. It is a beautifully written poem, and it certainly strikes a deep chord in my recent life.

Oh, and deevaa, I seem to have some free time on my hands, and I hear the weather in New Zealand is quite nice this time of year… Now, which café was it you wanted to meet at?

Many sincere thanks,
Isolde

I was up late (for me) posting some darkish new poems, and was totally blown away by the prolific and powerful poetry of Tom McKelvey. Let me be the first to say "Bravo" and welcome Tom to the Blender!

-Isolde

Isolde...I know I'm new to the blender, but I guess since I read it every day, and see the banter among all of you, I feel like I've been around for a while. You have all truly become "friends." I am saddened by the grief you are going through, and sincerely wish that I could be there for you in some way, in ANY way. My heart hurts for you, and I think of you often. I know you have all of your other friends here for you, and you know them better, but again, if there is ever anything you need.....I'm here.
OH! and "how many times" !!! what a fantastic image-inducing metaphor, and oh! how I relate !!

Tom...Welcome !! All of your poems are a wonderfull addition to the blender. I really liked, Julia,the truth,I know,She loves, and Addict. Looking forward to more.

Deevaa-I would give my left arm to come meet you and enjoy a visit with you, but I couldn't even get there soon--there's been so much snow here, flights are getting cancelled. mmmmmmphh , I am really getting tired of winter :-(

Hey Kevin....you out there ??

Jenn

(still hiding in the back of the room)

Jenn!

*waving*
I am still here! My Goodness, I have to check the Board more than a few times each day (*sheepishly confessing my addiction*), so at least I know where everyone is...

Deevaa-

I am humbled (again) that you find my work inspiring to your own artistic expression. There *is* a symbiosis between a picture containing a feeling or mood and the words used to describe the same...

Isolde-
<sigh>.............................
Walking the "Razor's Edge" can slice your heart in two. Although I am admittedly naive about a great many things (I am reminded that Mark Twain - I think - said once that the older he became, the LESS he dicovered he actually knew), walking the edge of that razor is not one of them.
In this poem you pose a most illustrative juxtaposition...
And the question that has been burning within me really *is* whether the fact that I have not become bitter merely a product of a heart that is too trusting and naive. I don't know if there is even an answer. I do know tht the older I get, the less I find that I truly know...

-K

*wanders in with her morning coffee*

Morning everyone... guess what... last night my baby slept is his own bed ALL night... first time ever... *smiles*

Wow -
Tom... I am glad you shared all that poetry... I don't have time now to read it all.. but what I have read...
In her bed...
All that is left...
Dandelion Wine... (I would love to see that painting - where can I find a copy?)
Catch 22 ...
beautiful.. beautiful.. beautiful.. beautiful..

Isolde... So you are the mistress of darkness hey?
I felt Heart of Darkness... and the nails in Able to Lie... I'm there with you.

Dreamscape - Ash ... that is poignant and beautiful..

Kevin - Check your email.. there is a present in there for you.

dee

Tom~

Your poems stole parts of me and put them on paper, especially "She wrote," "Pictures and little notes," and "Your Umbrella." Usually, though, I'm the one writing the letters. It's good to know someone out there got the point eventually, even if it was after the fact. keep submitting.
Kate

Can someone tell me what they think about my story, KIM?
Thank you.

¤

Dear Kirk,

Such a pleasure to see the verses of X as you have presented them. Makes me regret I have been absent from your site for so long......Rennie

Bravo, X!

I do not want to say a lot but-what beauty of poems you have
I wish I could get (via e-mail)some of your best love poems

X-

A day without reading your words, is like a day without
air.
Thanx for letting me breath!!!!!!

Julie

Tom-
let me also welcome you to the Blender... I am MOST pleased to welcome a true rennaissance man among our number.
(those of you who DON'T know what I am talking about, rent the movie "Rennaissance Man".)

As for your poems, I find many of them incredibly evocative. In particular, I find this imagery in "Pictures and little notes" simply and elegant:

"the words
around the edges
of her eyes"

Nicely done.

The last two lines of "Space/Time" some up what is most important in the cosmos...

And "The truth" --- is.

-K

Hello Blenderites!
Yes, it's Jane, back from the grave to let you know that I have 2 new submissions called Ouroboros and The Sea of Love.
Check them out if you want. I might also write a poem about the love of my favourite band who I saw live in December!
Bye!
Jane__

Read my other new poem if you want to, it's called "Suicide Poem" and is in the style of American Psycho by Brett Easton Ellis. Also I have written "Words and relationships" which is just plain weird.
See Ya!
Jane__

The mysterious X has me spellbound (and has for months) but I was reluctant to say something until now. Just for X's information, I have collated and bounded the work as a collection (complete with border trimmings and exotic typeface). It is inadequate to say the least but wanted X to know the work is most appreciated. The Love Blender is awesome and everyone does great work. Look forward to each and every issue.

Happy New Year Everyone!

Good afternoon all..
damn... it is one of those days... I am glad the blender is the better part of it.

dee

Rennie Lorca-

Where have you been? Long time no poetry. I hope you will be back to writing soon- I missed you, TruLeigh, and the gang, around here. Planning on coming back soon i hope!

Jenna

Rennie Lorca-

Where have you been?

Very cool site. Thanks for spreading love around.

X~"Wrapping", another...WOW!!!

Tom~ First let me say WELCOME...I have tryly enjoyed your poems especially: "I Fell",this one really tugged at my heart,"In Her Bed",such tenderness and emotion shown here,"Julia"Simply adored this one,especially the last stanza......Keep them coming :-)

KatyBeth~ "Butter", very creative and visually done...

Angel

Goodmorning all...

X -
*Surrogate Caress* MMmm - mmmmmmm....

Kevin -
I hear a rumour that you are behind on the new submissions page.. well the deevaa babe is ordering you to go and check my new stuff... and be honest... (although if ya gonna be too harsh you might wanna email me.. LOL)

Isolde & Shady -
Long time no hear... are either of you babes still about? E me if you can.

Ohh.... and I forgot who wrote it.. but "I'm taken" Liking it alot.

dee

hi hi HLLFBJ

Dear whoever,

I think that it would be better if you chould put some love valentine poems on this web site and make it for yonger people like kids because i'm in love with someone in my school and i need a love valentine poem because valentine's day is coming up really soon.

P.S. If you cant find any then e-mail me back and give me some address's so i can find some myself.

Hey everyone, I'm back from the dead. I feel so out of touch and there are so many new names on the blender. I have lots 'o good stuff to submit, but it's a matter of finding the time. I hope everyone is doing well, I will have to catch up with all of you later. We haven't had interent for about a month and a half, simply because there hasn't been time to use it, so why pay for it. I've missed you all.

PS heartsong, I didn't forget about you :-) I've missed you, I just didn't have a way to get in touch with you without e-mail.

Hello... I"m back....though I never left....I tried using stuff under the name Unknown to see if I got any reply's to my work...but I didn't. I got a question for everyone out there. Here's the situation.

I really really really like this one girl. Her boyfriend just dumped her. See... I want her boyfriend to go back out with her, see....she was happy with him. And I want her to be happy, even if she isn't with me. So am I stupid for feeling this way?

Snow

I'd like to have the poem from the movie
"Patch Adams" the last poem that patch
read to his love, i'd say more but i
don't want to ruin it for anyone

I have been busy painting... another piece I am happy with at the moment.. I am hoping on having an exhibiton some time this year... you guys will all have an invite...

Isolde... Chapter and verse... *smiles* so very true... I can't wait each morning to check the blender or my email for the next few pages of your book...

Snow, welcome back... all I have to say is to remember that there is a reason why they broke up in the first place, what is on the suface is not always how a women is feeling, pushing her back to a broken relationship might just end in another broken relationship..

Marla.. you to welcome back, everyone missed ya.

Thats enough from me.. better get back to those brushes.

dee

Welcome back MARLA,JANE and RENNIE!!! :-)

Devaa

I'm not going to push them back together. I'm giving her time to heal and figure things out for herself. I"m just going to be her friend. I was asking if I was stupid for "WANTING" them to go back together, because when she was with him, she was happy. He broke up with her. I guess I am stupid. For the past three years I've had a crush on her. I think it's stupid for someone to have a crush that long. This is the first time she's ever had a bo, and she was happy. I just want her to be happy..... I guess I am stupid, and I'm rambling....so I'll give everyone a break and shutup :) I feel inspired...I think I'm gonna write something (though I probably won't post it)

Snow

I remembered a day
we'd walked in the pond with the swans
in the Golden Gate Park.
How he'd touched my hair
as the birds rose up
and I looked into his eyes.

Dear Angel,

What a treat to be welcomed back...I did not realize that I had been missed or remembered. Thanks to someone like yourself, who knows truth, joy, and love...it is also certainly a joy coming back and reading your works again... :).....Rennie

Dear Jenna,

Thank you, too. I seem to get stopped everytime that I try to write you. Just came on the board to check it out and there was your note....yes, I had something to put up again...thanks...all of you keep me going at times...thinking/feeling. I am being honored in Talk City by some poets in the Poetry Plus (#PoetryPlus) chat room...and, after much sadness, I have a new love........Rennie

Snow... Oh I am sorry, I must have misunderstood your post.. I didn't mean to insult you... I certainly don't think you are stupid for wanting her to be happy.. in fact I admire you for wanting her to be happy rather than just wanting her.. maybe you can make her happier!!

dee

Deevaa,
Don't worry, you didn't insult me :) I do that myself, it's kindof fun actually. But the problem with me making her happy, well....I don't think she thinks so... The way she acts is like I'm just a freind, but she's also been dumped close to 2 weeks ago...So I'm giving her tiem to heal, so I'm just being her friend.... Besides... It feels good to just have a dream, and knowing that it will always be there. I think I lost everyone there? Did I? Oh well...If I did, tell me and I'll expalin... :) Gotta go. Watching the super bowl half time...gloria's on.. Like her..good singer ...lates
Snow

WOW! that month flew by...and was this BLENDER ever full! I ,even ,got far behind...Oh well , I'm sure February will be filled to the max too...After all ,it's almost Valentine's Day!!!
Have you Hugged your love today? *smile*

Angel

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