By Donovan (krylos53@aol.com)
Date: 17 January 1999

I apologize

Im not very good at this
But then, what guy is
Really, truly good at this
Romance
The lost art
I tried to tell you
I don't know what love is
Not anymore
You said you'd stand by me
That it didn't matter
That you loved me too much
To ever let go
I'm sorry about the distance
That I let it come between us
You know there was nothing
That I could do to avoid leaving
I didn't want to go
You made me promise
That if I wanted to see someone else
That I would tell you first
So, why can't you give
The same courtesy in return
Why did I have to come and find you
Just to find out
You were gone
Why didn't you tell me
Those feelings inside
A fair warning of what was to come
It may sound selfish
But I would have done anything
To avoid feeling this way
Alone again
The old cliché
You never know what you have
Until it is gone
Man was I stupid
I apologize
For just dipping my toes
Instead of jumping in
Both feet first
With my eyes closed
These words are no good
At saying what I mean
At expressing how I feel
But you won't speak to me
You won't write to me
Won't acknowledge my existence anymore
Is this what you want
The way YOU want it to be
Or is it him