By Snow (leopard99@hotmail.com)
Date: 17 December 1998

To Angel

The reason why I'm like this,
It's simple,
I'm hurting.
And I'll continue hurting like this,
Unless I do something,
And that's what I'm doing.
I love you,
And I always will no matter what,
And I can't deal with that,
Not having you,
And loving you so.
So I"m destroying it,
My love for you,
Or trying to,
Since love never leaves.
I'm living in my heart right now,
My broken shattered heart,
I live there,
With picks and axes,
Destroying my heart,
Shattering it beyond repair.
But it always heals,
But always with one thing missing,
A part that loved you,
BUt love never dies,
And I always keep some of my love,
To keep and remembered, locked away.
But that's why I'm like this,
Isolated from you,
Because I'm hurting,
From you, and from me.
Because destroying my heart hurts enough,
Without seeing you,
To remind me of a love lost,
A love that I can't have.